Thanks guys for all the concern . I have already asked him all the question hidden inside my heart . Shall not elaborate more ... *Only to those who i wish to tell* :) I and him are alright now and we are still together . I just wish that what he said are truth . I hope no lie from him as i did told him is the first place to answer me honestly . I will take sometimes to believe you back . I will believe that till now , you have really forget her alot le . I will just try to believe what you said for the last time . I dont wish to find out that you are hiding things from me . As you should know there is nothing for me to hide from you ... You knows all my friends and who i usually hang out with . I will either be in school for remedial , with Xueling darl they all , at home or be with you :D I feel much more better now . Thanks guys . Baby , dont lie to me or hide things from me anymore . I really loves you de . Muack . Hope we can really last long :D

Thanks Xueling darl for all the advise ... All the words that you have said to me ... And Thanks for advising me during mother tongue class ... Remember all the word you haven written for me . Really appreciate it . Thanks for being there and be my listening ears . Thanks Jonathan too :D

Thanks JiaJian for telling me all that . Telling me to talk face to face . Tell me dont anyhow thinks , everything will be fine . Really thanks alot .

Thanks Aloy too ... Cheerup and last long with your girlfriend :D

Replies to taggies :D

Daffy : Thanks girl ... Everything is alright now le :)

Affia : Thanks Darling ... Everything is alright le . You better blog okays ?? This is OUR blog not mine only *misses*

Jian : Jian , Thanks for all the advise . I had asked him everything le . Now okays le . Just hope he can dont lie to me or hide things to me anymore le . Thanks for being there to be my listening ear :)

Fanglin: Thanks Laopo ... Everything is solve le :) Take care .

Thanks Everyone for all the things you all have done :D

I Dont wish to care anything le . Miss her all you want . Loves her all you want . I am tired of it le . I have been tearing too many for you le . I wish it will just stop . I beg you . Stop hurting me anymore . My heart are fragile .

SHOULD I JUST END THIS RELATIONSHIP ???
HAIX .... EVERTHING SHOULD COME TO AN END ... IT IS GOOD FOR BOTH OF US .....

Darling forever :) *LOVES*

Today is Sport Day . Jia Jian , Stamford , Sister and I was late . We were suppose to reach at 7.20am but we reach at only 8.00am =X Just nice Mr . Chan came out from the stadium to give some instruction . So Suay . Ez-Link card was confiscated but i dont have ez-link card so dont need give :) Went to our respective place . The event start at 9.00am . I was also one of the runner . I was running the 4x100 and 4x400 events . Actually i was the reserved and in 4x400 events , i replaced Rika . I was so nervous when they ask us to get prepared . Hahas . Our team got the 2nd :) Next was the 4x100 events , i was also the reserved , I replaced YiTze . This time run was not that nervous le . And our group got 1st :D Was so so so happy . And they have the band performance then all the house cheerleading . Then they start giving prizes . When they announce the result , everyone was so nervous ( but actually most of the Alpine memeber know we were the champion ) , when they said the winner was Alpine , every shout the Alpine cheer and Timothy ( our house captain ) take the Alpine flag and run one round of the stadium with all the Alpine member behind . But but but , i did not run as it was so tiring =X After that we were to stay back and clean a portion of the stadium as we were late and that was the punishment for being late . After that went to find Baby awhile jiu separate ways le . Went KFC to eat with Martin , Victor , Jonathan , Xueling Darl and Sister . After eating went to Pasa Malam walk walk , Xueling darl and I bought a dress :) Home Sweet Home after that . At night , went Geylang eat frog porridge with family . Reach home at around 8.30pm . I MISS MY BABY ALOT :'(

School was quite bored today . Mathematics lesson , 1h 30min period , teacher teach us translation and reflection . English lesson also 1h30min lesson , teacher revise oral with us cause tomorrow we are having English oral . 2 hours of art . Hope that teacher was not here as all of us did not finish the assignment she gave . But still we must face the fact . She see everyone personally and lucky she did not scold me :) She want us to finish 7 drawings and 4 sketches by tuesday as the HOD want to check . She said if those who cannot finish , will have to drop . OMG !!!! I must chiong le . After school went to canteen for 30mins and went to Mdm Chuah class for Chinese oral . I did not know some of the words in the passage . The conversation was fine . Hope i can pass :) Wait for Baby awhile and went home .

This few days , i was fucking bad luck lor . Today , when i was taking bus 18 home . I sat beside a Indian Man , as it was crowded and have no other seats . Starting , he keep move towards my side so i move also . Then he act that he want to take things out from his pocket and he touch my thigh . I ignore it and he keep shake his leg and rub against my leg . Look at him and he was digging his nose . OMG !!! Fucking disgusting man . The girl beside me alight and i quickly change the sit . Told Sister about it and she said " Oh , never see if he got steam ma " Hahas . Then during Art period . I went to the toilet and there is this group of Malay boys ask if i have tissue paper . I told them no and went in the toilet . When i went out , they were sitting at the staircase and they ask the same question again . Then i ask them why they need tissue then one of them says cause he stomach pain . I remember Xueling Darl told me there was this group of Malay guys look at her chao geng when she was walking up the stair . So i walk towards the left side and quickly walk up the stairs . I Hate tico pek . And i will only sits with people i know and ladies . Or not , i would rather stand :D

10 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY :)

Happy 10 months anniversary with my Baby :) We did not celebrate it as it was a monday and we still have school :( But , nevermind . There are still lots of anniversary . Right Baby ?? :) Hope Baby can dont shout or raise his voice at me , STOP saying all the hurting words as it really hurts me :'( Stop singing loudly in school , outside , everywhere . Hope Baby can quit smoking which i long wish and he also promised he will . I will get disappointed , angry and sad whenever i know he smoke . Sometime i even feel like crying . But , nevermind . I am not someone important to him also cause i believe that if someone is really important to you , they will kept their promises . But , that is his life , i cannot stop him . Hope Baby can less go out late and drink less as it makes me worry what he is doing outside and will start to lost trust on him . Most importantly , i wish Baby can pay more attention on me , care for me more . I am a girl who needs lots of care and concern from my boyfriend . Stop hurting my fragile hearts . I will also try not to show attitude easily . Be more gentle , dont always pinch him . I will try to change to be his hearts that perfect girlfriends . Hope he can too . But all that is just a hope . I wont have the dreams that it will come true . LOVES YOU MY BABY !!!! MUACKS .

FRIDAY

It was a public holiday . Slept till 5.30am in the morning and was disturb by Sister . She have a quarrel with Xiao Matt till she raise her voice and i was waken up by her . Fall asleep at don't know what time and sleep till 11.00 am plus . Sister was using the computer . Afternoon time , Sister was so bored and wanted to find people out . But everyone seem to be busy . So at around 4.00pm plus , she went to find Stella with Jeryl . Me , went to meet Baby :) Reached Baby house at around 6.00pm plus . Watch television all the way . Went down to buy food at around 8.00pm plus . Actually wanted to go eat Sakae but today is public holiday sure a lot of people , so we give it a miss . We bought 1 spring chicken , 1 packet of fried oyster and we still have to eat the food his mother cooked . I WAS LIKE , OMG , SO MANY ??? Actually wanted to buy ice-cream back , but thinking that we still have so many food to eat , so forget it . Watch tv at Baby house all the way till 11.00pm and home sweet home . Baby was so good to buy prepaid card for me . I think he scared i really MIA or just can find my easily . Hahas . But the dumb me dont know how to use as i have never use it before =X Anyway , still thanks my Baby :) Loves him . Muacks !!!!!


SATURDAY

Sleep till around 11.00am plus . Wash my school shoes and help Mama do some chores . I am such a good daughter right ?? =X Went to bathe and prepared while waiting for my Mama to finish cooking . Left house at around 3.00pm plus . Meet Baby at Eunos platform . Saw Yitze , Huina , Melinda , JiaJian and XianEng inside the MRT :) It was raining cats and dogs went we reach dobhy ghuat . We have no choice but to take cab to The Cathay . Reached there and the shows we wanted to watch (Sky of Love) sold out le . Sian !!! So we took cab again to Cine . Bought the 8.45pm shows . As we still have 3 hours before our show start , went to the Heeren then back to Cine . We have dinner at Suki Sushi . Overall , the shows was nice . But for guys , they might find it bored . The show was funny and sad . I hold back my tears and did not cry . Instead , i disturb Baby and we were laughing when people were crying :D The shows ends at 11.00pm plus . We walk to MRT to take the last train . While walking home , something happen and it scared me , i almost cry . Lucky Baby was there :) Loves him muchy :D

Today took Shirley 's Dad van to school . Baby was late for school . First lesson was Social Studies .Teacher go through with us the Previous Test answer . She used Poh Suan , Xueling and My paper to teach the class . Was damn Paiseh lorr . Anyway , we have to retest as many people did not do well . Next lesson was Chemistry , have a fight with Baby and i was injured . But but but ... i still win :) Next lesson was physic , don't know the teacher knows how to teach a not . Keep make mistake , gave us the wrong answer and the student keep correct the teachers . WTH ??? I rather want Mr . Leow lorr . So , slept during physic lesson =X Recess , something happen . *Skip* Next was CME and Home period which is also = Math lesson . Teacher gave those pupil who haven receive their O level confirmation slip . After that , she start her math lesson . Most of the classmates were so tired and fall asleep . Went to canteen for 30 mins and went for Social Studies remedial . Actually should be having Physic lesson , but all science teacher have to go for a meeting so lesson was cancel . YAY !!!! So Miss Wong , social studies teacher , push the time forward . Go through 2 SBQ question and Home Sweet Home :) SORRY BABY !!!!!
Oh ya , on Wednesday , went i was taking bus 18 to school . There was this guy age around 30 plus came up the bus and sits behind sister and me . I was tired and so i took a nap in the bus . I feel that someone was touching my shoulder , i thought it was the pole cause i was sitting near there . So i just continue to sleep . Then suddenly , i feel that it moves from the right to the left . And this time , i confirm that someone touches me . So i turn around and the guy quickly took his hand away . So i didn't lean against the seat and move forward abit . He was trying to act normal so he just put his hand in between sister and me . Then i look in front as it was about to reach my stop . And he touch again , i was so dulan . But i did nothing and alight the bus . Told sister about this and she said " You should stand up , turn around and gave him a punch on his face ma " So from now , i am scared of guys sitting behind me .

Yesterday went for sport heats . Martin was injured and sick . He was send to A&E and ZhengChao accompany him there . This morning , heard from ZhengChao that the doctor gave him 2 injection . One for vomiting one for headache and he went home after that . GET WELL SOON MARTIN !!!!!!!!! Today lesson was quite bored . Fall asleep in English lesson . PE was tiring . We only do when teacher was looking at us , when teacher turn away , we stop . Hahas . Maths lesson , teacher teach us new topic , Translation . Xueling and Stamford nearly fall asleep and JiaJian fall asleep . Hahas . Mother Tongue lesson , teacher actually wanted to do composition but she forget and so , we do our workbook . Teacher ws angry as people keep talking . And she said Sister and I like to talk . Then i said her " 我妈妈生我 ，给我嘴巴就是讲话的吗 。 不然给你嘴巴做没 " And the whole class laugh . Have break for 30minutes and we went for Geography lesson . Fall alseep in that lesson cause i am really tired and sleepy . Hahas . When to buy potatoes to eat while waiting for Jonathan to come . Baby went for Maths remedial so never go home together . Chen Hong came when we were sitting at the foyer . Actually he was suppose to have sport heats at Bedok Stadium but due to the rain , it was cancel . He was very guai and came back for Maths remedial . At least Baby is not alone , he still have Chen Hong :) Home Sweet Home after eating our potatoes . Going to play Viwawa le .

Just back from the sport heats . I am running the 800m event for my house , Alpine . I ran the last second position . Quite shag . My wish is to be better than that . Thanks Justin for those supportive words . Morning , the 9 of us , JiaJian Stamford Xueling Jonathan Sister ChiRong ChenSeng Martin and Me was nearly late . Luckily we reach school on the dot . Hahas . Have Math lesson for 1h 30mins . Doing our Loci all the way . English for another 1h 30mins . Teacher practise with us our oral . Everyone was hoping the Miss Jew , our art teacher was not here cause everyone did not complete the assignment she gave us before the March Holiday and was fear that she will be mad . Luckily she was not here as yesterday she was not feeling well . During the 2 hours of Art period , we play Psp , talk and see pictures . Zheng Chao and me was laughing at someone . * Secret * Actually want climb gate home as Art also do nothing but then , Baby will scold me if he knew . So to be safe , better dont :) After school went home straight and prepare then go sport heats :D People , dont message me or called me . Due to the huge amount of my bill and i didnt went to paid . My line was cut off :( But nevermind , at least during this time i can save money and slowly paid . But Baby and me seem to be like drifting apart after my line was cut off . I could not message him , only can use my house phone to call him . But he seem to be busy or dont wish to talk to me . Sometime called him , awhile later he will said he will called me back as he needs to do something . It seem that i have disturb him . SORRY !!!! Or when i called him , he will just keep quiet or when i called him , he just answer then keep quiet le . Haix :( But nevermind , at least i can MIA myself during the weekend . He also wont care cause he will never miss me . It hurts me when i told him i will be going to Bintan on the June Holidays , I asked him dont miss me and he said he wont de :'( My heart are tearing . Who Knows ??? Haix haix haix ... But nevermind bah , this is how he feel i cannot stop him . Maybe one day , i never ever contact him , he wont even feel sad or miss me bah :(

MY BESTIE AND LOVE ONES :D

Wake up at 12.00pm plus . Called Sister and asked her where is she as i didnt saw her . She told me she was at XiaoMatt house . Wash up and brother bought breakfast for us . I ate fishball noodle . After eating jiu watch television and called Baby . Went to do my art for awhile . I need to hand in 7drawings and 2 sketches but i only finish 1 drawing . Sian . Play Viwawa with Xueling . I am addicted to Viwawa le . Nowadays keep play . Hehe :D Chat with JiaJian while playing games . And we badmouth about Baby . Told him and he was angry . But it was just a joke ma . Shall not reveal what we said or not he will kill me =X Baby dont angry arhx . We are just joking :D Whole day at home doing nothing so bored !!!!!!!!!! I am hungry le but lazy go down buy food . Lucky Mama is coming back and so kind of her to buy dinner for me :) I am off to watch MY GIRL . I am in loves with that show . Today is the last episode le . Bye peeps :)

Wake up at around 12.00pm plus . Called Sister asked her at where as i didnt saw her at home . She was already at Xiao Matt house le . So early luhh . Washed up and bathe . Daddy went down to buy breakfast for me and brother . Wanton mee again . Hahas . I finish the whole plate of mee which i usually dont finish it up . But after eating , i went to the toilet and bake cake . Hahas =X Went to use the computer while waiting for my hair to dry . 2.00pm , start to prepare . Someone called my house and brother answer . But he hang the phone without saying any words . So i asked him who called but he said he dont know cause the person hang the phone . Check the caller ID and know is Baby . Called him and asked him why he hang . He said cause no one reply when he said hello . Hahas . Talk to him awhile and hang . Took bus number 8 . Reached his house at 4.30pm . Watch the Detective Conan all the way . Went down for Dinner at around 8.00pm plus . Have chicken rice while Baby have the western food . Went back his house and watch zhou ri ba dian dang . Left his house at 11.00pm plus . Took bus 8 to Tampines Safra and change bus 28 to cousin house as Mum , Dad , Brother , Da Sao and Sister is there :D SORRY BABY FOR SHOWING ATTITUDE TO YOU TODAY . BUT I JUST DONT LIKE YOU TO SAY ALL THAT SO I WILL ANGRY AND ATTITUDE TO YOU DE . HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND :D * REMEMBER * I DONT LIKE HIM , I ONLY LIKE AND LOVES YOU :D MUACKX . I HARTS MY BABY ALOT . ONLY HIM IS ENOUGH .

Hey people .... I am back from Malaysia :D Miss me right ??? =X Overall , the trip was fun . Only that i got lots of mosquito bites :( So itchy . Alot of things happen , visit many places and took lots of photo . But but but , i have accidentally deleted all the pictures so , no pictures . Sorry people !!!!! We went to visit the rice plantation , oil palm , village and even went to see fireflies . The fireflies is so beautiful . The utensil in Malaysia is so dirty , so we were always wipe the utensil before using it . The first 2 night hotel was quite fine but the last night resort was ..... OMG . So dirty man !!!!!! Reached Singapore at around 4.00pm plus . Brother came to school to fetch me , JiaJian also lobang my brother car . Went to tuition early in the morning at 10.00am . Quite tired . JiaJian bought rice for me to eat . Thanks :D End at 12.00pm , went home and rest . 1.00pm plus , eat wanton mee . I am going to turn fat le . Keep eat . Must control . Play Viwawa . Called Baby and talk to him . Evening , 5.00pm plus , eat mian xian . Normally , i eat one bunch of mian sian jiu will full le . But now , i eat 2 bunch and not full yet . OMG !!!!!! Haven my stomach turn big ?? But end up , i never go eat just bear with it . If i carry on eating , one day , I will surely turn fat de . Never ever will let this thing happen to me . Hehe :D Baby now is outside with his friend watching movie . Leaving my at home doing nothing . SO BAD !!!!!!!!! I AM SO BORED !!!!!! Back to my game le :D

Wake up at around 12.00pm plus . Washed up and eat breakfast . Went to bathe at around 1.00pm plus . Prepared and left house at around 4pm plus . Called Mum and told her that i am going out le . Something happened and i cried after hanging up the phone . Called Baby but he did not answer . Which make me very angry . Didnt answer his phone when he called me after the thrid calls i answered . He asked to me to miss call him when reaching. But the problem is that he should know i cannot called him . Which make me more angry . Yesterday he told me he will call me and talk to me on the phone till i reached his house but we havent even talk till 10 sentences and he hanged . Which make me really very very very ANGRY . Forget it , i dont blame him . Cause in the first place i not in a good mood . Reached his house and watch DVD . 6.00pm plus , went down for dinner . Went back his house at Zhou Ri Ba Dian Dang . Home Sweet Home at 11.00 pm .

Saying all that really hurts me . I did not always went out , instead , this was the first day i went out for the whole week . Asking me to reach home at around 10.00pm plus which actually i only went home before 12pm . Scolding me but not scolding her . WHY ???? Dont you find it unfair to me ?? Maybe is cause you know i have a boyfriend . But you knew that in the first place . Telling you the fact instead of telling you lots of lies just to went out . Am i wrong ?? I really dont know what you are thinking . You really make me day bad . You spoilt my mood . But who knows ?? No one knows i am unhappy . Haix .

Was really unhappy with you today cause of something . Alot of Why running through my mind ??? Haix . Knowing that really hurts me . Silent in the bus al the while on the way home cause i really dont wish to talk . Fake smile on my face cause i dont want you to know i am unhappy . Haix .

People , leave me alone . I just wish to be alone . Maybe all the things should me kept back inside my heart like last time . After all this things , i knew that actually nobody is there for me when i need them . Nobody knows what i really want . Haix . I am tired of life .

Its been a long time since i last blog . Have been very busy this few days with school stuff . Almost every day was REMEDIAL REMEDIAL REMEDIAL !!!!!!! It's really tired , very very tired . Everyday was like not having enough sleep . Tuesday , we went to Senoko Power Station . The place was okay but quite bored when the person was telling us the process and everything . Reached school at around 4.30pm plus . Have remedial at 5.30pm . Stay in school do math worksheet and walk to remedial class at 6.30pm . Today , have remedial till 8.00pm . Only Stamford , Xueling Darl and me attend the lesson . JiaJian went Genting so he did not attend , as for the rest , i dont know . Took 222 to inter then 18 with Baby , Jonathan and Xueling Darl . Went to buy food at my house downstair de coffeeshop then went home . Zhiwei , Xiaomatt , Stella and Jeryl was at my house playing mahjong . Eat and watch television . Talking to Baby at the living room while the rest at my room . They went home at around 12.00am . SIAN !!!!!!!!!! I AM LACK OF SLEEP :(

Wake up at around 12.00 pm . Wash up and watch television for a while . Sister went to bedok inter early in the morning to do her CIP . Actually wanted to ask her buy breakfast for me , but she didnt answered my calls . Dasao told me to call Brother if i wants to eat . We ate kway chap . After eating , rest awhile and went to bathe . Asked Sister to help me called the Century Square cinema to book for the show , Meet the Spartan . Went to prepared , left house at around 3.00pm plus . Went to collect the ticket and went to the toilet . When i was in the toilet , Baby called and asked me where am i ?? I told him i am in the toilet . Went out of the toilet and saw him :D Went to bought the Nachos set and went in for our show . The people working in the Cinema is so idiot . When the first time i wanted to watch a NC 16 show with Baby , the person wanted to check our IC . But i didnt bring . So this time , clever me brought along my IC but they did not check . SHIT MAN !!!!!!!!!!!!!! Overall , the show is really short and not really that funny like what Sister told me . Some parts are really boring till i nearly fall asleep . After the show , JiaJian called Baby and asked him at where all that . So he said he will called Baby when he reached . Baby and i went to walk around as Baby wanted to buy some T-shirt to go Malaysia . Pei-ed JiaJian went to Golden Village to buy ticket for The Leap Years . Saw Wendy there too :D Baby and i left went his girlfriend reach-ed . Went to Yoshinoya with them as Baby wanted to eat . After eating , we went to see fish . Baby and i says alot of funny and stupid thing . Hahas :D 7.00pm plus , JiaJian and his girlfriend went up for their show , Baby and i went back my house . On the way back , something happen . *skip* Went downstair to eat with my family and relative as it was my Grandma birthday . Many funny things happened and make me laugh :D Went up my house to play mahjong . Sister , 2 nephews , Baby and i was inside the room playing games . Have alot of fun and my nephew is so cute !!!! Baby said that too :) Baby left at around 1.00am plus . Actually cousin wanted to drive him home but she scared will have road block and she drink . So , brother gave Baby money to take cab home :D


Baby,
Dont think so much . My mother not dont like you just that she dont know how to show out . Dont think you are not invited . Hope you have fun . Sorry if my family or relative have left a bad impression on you . Sorry if i let you feel that you are not invited . Sorry if i let you feel that they dont like you . Sorry if i let you feel left out . Sorry for everythings . But all i have to say is that . You are important to me , so i will bring you along for this kind of occasion . I had never ever bring any of my boyfriend to this kind of occasion or even show them to my parents . Simply just that you are important to me so i wanted them to know you . Wanted them to know you are my boyfriend . Hope you understand . And and and ...... Sorry about the things happen on the way home . I didnt mean to be angry with you . I am sorry for behaving that way . I was so scared that you walk away halfway and i look back to see if you are there . I get nervous when i didnt saw you and i am really scared that you will walk away . Sorry about that .I didnt mean it de . I know it was my fault so i stop , wait for you and said sorry to you . Really really sorry . I am glad that you did not walk away . I am really sorry for being so attitude to you . Sorry Baby !!!!!!! Hope you enjoy your days too :D I LOVES YOU !!!!!! Muackx .