OMG !!! My wardorbe is spoilt ... the hang clothes that stick broke cause i have lots of clothes and was over weight ... Hahas :):):):) Lucky , my papa , the superhero fix it when he was back from work . Yah-ness !!! So , have a cleaning of my room and now , it is much more neater . Was so tired man :0 Sister bought me my all time favourite , Hot fudge from Mac . Yeah ... *loved* .


Going to buy the shoes from Everlast next saturday with HuiNa and Xueling Darl :D

SATURDAY 26/04/2008

Went for math remedial from 8.30am to 12.30pm . Wait for Baby outside the D&T homeroom and went to his house . Watch television , talk talk . 3.00pm , went to prepare . Left house at 4.00pm . Going Cine to meet Xueling Darl and her boyfriend . But end up , both of us were late and could not watch the movie (run papa run ) which we actually planned . So we meet at Orchard MRT and went to walk around . Headed to FarEast Plaza . Bought a jeans from blossom :D Went to Wisma shop shop . Saw a shoes from Everlast . Cute cute . I want to buy :D After that , actual plan was to go Tampines Mall eat Sakae as Baby wanted to eat Sushi for a very long time . But by the time we reach tampines will be 9.00pm plus so we went to 85 instead . Eat stingray and Baby was perspiring . So after eating we went to Shop & Save to walk walk , also to let Baby cool down :D Went 7-11 to buy some tidbits and went to Xueling Darl house nearby to play . Was watching some "show" . Hahas =X Home Sweet Home at 11.00pm plus . I Loves my Baby . Muacks !!!!

I MISSED THIS BABY ( Not that guy behind arhx =X ) and HIS MOTHER !!!

11th Months Anniversary :D

Happy 11th month anniversary Baby !!! I am happy being with you for this few months . Quarrel does occur but i also dont wish de . I also dont like to quarrel and i believe that nobody loves to quarrel with their loves one . But i quarrel with you is because i care for you and i am a very sensitive girl . Every of you moves , words you have said i will rememebered . I will get hurt when all those hurting words coming out from your mouth . Hope you understand . I hope that you can stop shouting at me , raise your voice at me . I want more care from you , more attention . I am a girl who wants all my loves one attention and cared me alot . I hate being hack care . My loves for you is alot till now but i can say it is not fully because of all the previous hurt i get from relationship , i really scared to put in too much loves in a relationship . Maybe one of the reason is also because i dont trust you now . As time goes by , the more trust i have in you , the loves will get more deep . I really hope you will cherish this relationship and forget about the past . I hate her coming between us . Hope you knows and understand bah .... Happy 10month to Yitze and Xiao Ming too :D

GET WELL SOON HUINA :D

Tears rolling down my face without my permission . I cant control ... You disappoint me again :'( Simply hate myself ... Leave Me Alone !!!!!!!

Is all fault . My fault for worrying about you . My fault to angry . My fault to know where are you but for what still worry . My fault for never ever to understand what you really want . I am a failure . My heart ache . Haix

Friday 18/04/2008

ESTHER'S CHALET :D

Friday is Ping Yi Secondary School Speech Day so student who is not involved can go home at 10.00 am . Yah !!! First lesson was mother tongue , have mother tongue test . Then was chemistry . Went to canteen eat Uncle Ali and home sweet home . Sleep till 2.00pm . Wake up , call Baby and went to prepare . Meet HuiNa at my house downstair and went to take bus 21 . Saw PohSuan went we were going to foodcourt as HuiNa is hungry . Talk to her awhile . HuiNa bought Japanese ball . Wait for Yitze . Went in the Chalet . Went we were in the lift , HuiNa press level 2 and we were talking . I realise that why only 1 storey also must take so long and i took a look at the lift and realise that it was still at Level 1 . Hahas . Went in put our bags and play bomberman together . Xueling Darl and Jonathan reached HuiNa and i jiu went outside to find them , also go eat . Order chicken rice and a plate of tofu . Finish eating , went cheers to buy some tidbits and ice-cream . HuiNa and i manage to finish the whole tug of ice-cream but Xueling did not . Play Dai dee with Xueling darl , HuiNa and Baby . Was having lots of fun went playing . Something funny happened but i shall not reveal out just in case the person will be ANGRY !!!! Home Sweet Home at 11.00pm :D




SATURDAY 19/04/2008

The Hottie The Nottie :D

Went to school for remedial early in the morning . Reached school at 9.00am . Saw Xueling Darl sitting at the foyer so went to find her . We went to 7-11 to see if there is anything for us to buy as we are hungry . I suggest to go prata shop eat . Walk pass and Darl suggest Nasi Lemak . So we went to eat . The food is so ex lorr . 1 chicken wing 1 otah and 1 fishcake $3.70 . IDIOT =X Lesson end at 1.00pm . Took 222 with JiaJian , Stamford and Darl . Called Baby and told him i going over to his house . Reached his house jiu watch television , do my Mathematic homework and watch television . 6.00pm went to prepared and took bus 22 to Tampines Interchange . Went to buy Nachos and went in for our show . We watch The Hottie The Nottie . There were JiaJian , ChenHong , HuiNa , YiTze , Shirley Darl , Jonathan , XianEng , Marcus , Keith , Baby and me :D Overall , the show was funny , everyone was laughing like nobody business :D Went to walk around and home sweet home :D Accompany Baby go 7-11 to buy food eat as he was hungry :D MIss my Baby . I LOVES HIM :D

Its been a long time since i blog :) I forget what i did actually . Anyway , yesterday , went to Math remedial in the morning , from 8.00am to 9.30am . Saw Bastard in bus 222 . Chat with him and he alight at the stop before me . After remedial , took bus 60 with JiaJian . I go meet Baby and JiaJian meet chen hong . Buy mac before going to his house . Eat and rest in the room . It start to rain and we thought we dont have to go back school , but who knows . The rain stop at 1.00pm . At 1.45pm , slowly walk back to school . Oh ya people , we are going to Kallang Stadium to support our school band in the SYF compeititon . It was so hot . Everything started at 4.00pm sharp and ends at 7.00pm plus . Overall , Deyi band was so pro . They play well , formation was clear and their major was good at handling the stick . They really deserve Gold with Honour . Our school band got silver , was quite disappointed as i think Bowen performance was not that good as our school but they got Gold . Walk to Kallang mrt and off to Tampines to have our dinner . Was feeling so hungry as they did not provide lunch for us , so i only had my breakfast :( Went Tampines Mall to eat with HuiNa and Baby . Actually Melinda joining us but she was tired so she went home and Yitze went to meet her boyfriend :) Saw some ex classmate there too . Left at around 9.00pm plus . Accompany HuiNa home first then Baby send me home :D

After thinking for so many days , i finally came to a conclusion . In this relationship , i have learn a lot of things . I think that i should not care you much . Do whatever you like . Never ever to ask you make any promise . Never ever will i also have any hope in the promises you have made. I should just let you do the things you like and not control you much . Not to give you any attitude . If any girls message you , i will not be attitude just nod my head and say okays . If you want to reply to any girls message , just do it , i will not stop you . After all this , i realise that you will treat me better , care for me more . Maybe cause you think that i have finally understand you . Know exactly what you want . Not forcing you to do the things you cannot do and like being force to make any promises . I will not think so much anymore . If you really misses her , still love her and not making any effort of forgetting her . Just let it be bah . I cant control . If you want to continue lying to me and saying that scared i will angry or attitude as your reason then let it be bah . Conitue to lie to me . Now , i will not be emo or sad easily . I dont want to be so sad because of small things and i am still young . Why do i have to be so sad in such a small age ?? Never ever will i want . I will just try to be happy every day and be a happy-go-lucky girl . I dont want to think much , care much le . I just know that as long as i have never done anything wrong behind your back , i will not feel guilty . Even if one day we broke off . I will be a happy girl from today onward :D


Loves Xueling darl , Sister , Affia Darling , Lam Laopo , HuiNa Banana, Yitze Miki and Melinda Ah mel :D

so long never blog le . and finally im back .

last saturday went ice skating with ah lam . so i went bedok to meet her for lunch first then after that take bus 197 to jurong . the bus journey was like so freaking long man . about 2hrs? and the one who suggest taking bus was her . lols . (will update pics that we took on saturday when ah lam send me e pics .)

hmms . so shagg man . art need to pass up 8 layouts . already got so many homework still must do art . hmms . :( . yesterday chiong my art till today morning almost 5 am . it was like i slept for just one & a half hour . but luckily when i wake up don't have headache . :) . when i wake up the feeling is quite high . like is very tired but can't slp . don't know how to explain . lols . i just felt that nowadays in school i will not feel tired and sleep in class like last time . hhehes . now already april le , very soon going mid year , prelim then n-level . omg . time passes fast .. .. :D

Now de En En . Cute Bah ???
The Baby so fat !!!

I am a good girl :) Right ?? =X

Saturday

2.4KM RUN

Wake up at 6.00am , prepared and everything . Left house at 6.30am . Saw HuiNa at the bus-stop jiu take 28 together :D Reached the bus-stop , just nice saw Jonathan alight from the bus in front of us . Walk to the opposite together to find JiaJian and XueLing Darl . A while more , Yitze jiu came le . Waited for PohSuan for so long, so decided not to wait for her . So we slowly walk in . Play HuiNa psp. Went reaching , saw the first group of people start to run le . We got to run the second group de . Mark our attendance , pass our bags to ChenHong and went to do our warm up exercise . I run slowly , only chiong went the teacher giving ticket de . The slowly run again until i saw a round place where Baby and Chen Hong was sitting near . Got one band member over take me when i was running toward the ending point . Idiot =X Went to find Baby and the rest . Saw Sister walking toward , faster push her to the ending point . But in the end , she still fail for her run :( Home Sweet Home after that . Reach home , bathe , dry my hair and went to sleep . Wake up at 3.00pm plus , prepared and left house to meet Baby :D Reach his house , watch television all the way . Went down for dinner at 8.30pm . Went back to watch television again . This time , i fall alseep =X Wake up and rest for awhile jiu went home le . Miss my Baby :(

Sunday

Shao Mu

Brother came to disturb us and ask us to wake up as we are going to ShaoMu today . Actually dont feel like going de cause yesterday very late sleep . Was so tired . But still , being a good girl , i still went . Went to fetch Mama from work first then off to Ah Ma house . Eat laksa (cook by uncle) YUMMY !!!! Rest awhile , went to the toilet and off we go . Cause the Lorry was to small , so sister , brother , da sao , cousin and me sit the car :D We reach and buy ice cream while waiting for the others to reach . Went in , the weather was so so so hot !!!! Went off at around 11.30pm . Went back Ah Ma house for awhile jiu home sweet home . Bathe and went to talk to DaSao . Actually eating dinner with DaSao sister , also can see Cutie En En but her sister husband dont want :( Miss En En lorr .... But but but , i miss my Baby the most :(

FUCK !!!!! FUCKING ANGRY NOW !!!! FAMILY PROBLEM , RELATIONSHIP PROBLEM AND STUDY PROBLEM ..... I AM VERY VERY STRESS !!! I AM GOING CRAZY SOON !!! FUCK LAH !!!! I FUCKING HATE YOU !!! YOU ELDER THAN ME DOESNT MEAN I HAVE TO LET YOU ANYTHING .... YOU ARE THE ELDER DOESNT MEAN I HAVE TO RESPECT YOU ... SO WHAT IF YOU ARE ELDER ... BIG FUCK ?? I DONT GIVE IT A DAMN MAN !!! YOU ARE RUDE TO ME FIRST , SO , YOU HOPE I WILL TALK NICELY BACK TO YOU ?? FAT HOPE !!! SIMPLY HATE YOU .... FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE !!!!!

YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL ... CAUSE YOU MIGHT NEVER HAVE THIS FEELING .... YOU DONT KNOW HOW I FEEL , WHAT I WANT . I HAVE BEEN CHANGING TO MUCH FOR YOU . SAYS I ALWAY ASK YOU COME WITH MY GIRLFRIEND BUT I WILL NEVER FOLLOW YOU ?? THINK OF IT AGAIN ... I WILL ALWAY FOLLOW YOU AND WENT TO THE NEXT LESSON WITH YOU ONLY ... GIRLFRIEND ARE NOT BESIDE ME ... BUT YOU ?? ALWAY YOUR BOY FRIENDS WENT TO THE THEN YOU ALSO GO AND LEAVE ME GOING TO THE NEXT LESSON ALONE AND EVEN ASK ME TO HELP YOU CARRY YOUR THINGS . WHAT DO YOU TREAT ME AS ?? YOUR MAID ?? WHEN THEY DONT WANT GO , YOU ALSO DONT WANT TO GO .. IF THEY DONT WANT GO , THEN YOU WILL ASK THEM TO GO ... AGAIN , LEAVE ME ALONE . HAVE YOU THINK OF ME ?? ALL THOSE WORDS YOU SAID REALLY HURTS ME . YOU EVEN SCREAM AT ME . I FUCKING HATE YOU SCREAMING AT ME , THAT IS WHAT I TOLD YOU BEFORE . AND YOU FUCKING FORGET IT AND FUCKING DO IT AGAIN . YOU MAKE ME FUCKING ANGRY ... FUCK LAH ... NB .. BUT , DO YOU UNDERSTAND ?? DO YOU KNOW ?? TELLING YOU THIS AND YOU KEPT QUIET NOT EVEN SAY A FUCKING SORRY ?? WTF MAN ... FUCK OFF LAH .... NBCB ....

I FUCKING HATE THIS WORLD !!!

Yesterday was feeling unwell but still , i went to school because there was ART lesson and i dont wish Miss Jew to said that i never finish my art assignment so dont dare go school . First period was Mathematics . Slept for the whole lesson as i was having a headache and it was killing me . Xueling asked me to go home as i was having a fever but i insist not to . English lesson , pay attention to teacher but the headache was still there . Did not eat anything during recess . Art lesson , do my art and hand in to teacher . Went for math remedial for 30 mins . Home Sweet Home . Reached home , bathe and called Baby . Knowing that he had been waiting for me at school but cause prepaid low so i did not call him . Sorry Baby !!! Sleep and wake up at 6.30pm . Drag myself up from the bed to eat my dinner . Ate only a little as i have no appeitite . Prepared and left house for tuition . Told my tutor i actually dont feel like going to tuition as i have been having fever since Saturday . He told me to not go school if tomorrow still feeling unwell .

Wake up at around 9.30am . Receive 2 message one is from Baby telling me he have a bad stomachache and did not go school today . Another is from Sister telling me Baby did not go school , and her physic textbook is with him , ask me how ?? SORRY SISTER !!!! Prepared and went down to the polyclinic . Waited for around 30mins plus for the registration . 1 hour 30 mins for the consulation and 30 min plus for the medication . Reached home at only 12.00pm plus . I need to rest .....


Haix ... Feeling so lonely now ... Alone at home . Nothing to do . Darling , sister all in school . No one to chat with ... Baby , out with dont know which girl . Say will called me since 12.30pm till now 2.30pm le . Also haven called me . Haix .. Damn disappointed with him this few days by all the action he does . I really have nothing to say . Starting to lose hope on him once again . I FEEL LIKE CRYING :'( Dont know why . Haix . Haix . Haix . I am feeling so lonely . No want cares me . Next time sick , i rather go to school than stay at home . At least i still have Darling they all to care for me . At home , no want to care :'(