24[o]5[o]7 * The day I start to loves him*

2009-11-10T20:05:00.004+08:00

This few days , we get to know a new friend :) His name is Jimmy . Shall not say how we get to know him . Hahas !!! He is a very funny guy that make us laugh like mad . There is one time , we went to Geylang for Beancurd . We were laughing at some stuff till mad but he was so seriously eating his egg tart . We saw and laugh like mad . He is a shy boy in conclusion. Went Supper with Ken, Baby and Sister on Thursday. Ken dyed his hair , and is very very red . We went to fetch him home first from his workplace . Wait-ed for him downstair and off we went to Changi Village for Dim Sum :) When we are reaching , I turn-ed back to talk to Ken and I realised that his mole had become very big and black .

So i asked him,

Me : Ken , Why today your Mole like so big and black sia ???

Ken : Because I go laser my Mole .

Me : Oh iszit ? Then how many times do you need to totally get off your mole ?

Ken : 1 time only . Now my mole is burned, it will drop and my mole will disappear.

Me: Icic :)

Few days back , went Tampines 1 shopping with Baby and Shiwei . Went in Queen's Avenue and I bought a Prada small bag :) I love it . It is so nice . Shiwei saw a Porter bag and he so in love with it . But he dont have so much money so I lend it to him :) Both of us are happy . Gonna buy Ralph Lauren bag soon . Even Baby say it is cheap too :)

2009-11-02T19:24:00.003+08:00

Last Thursday, went Jalan Kayu for supper with Chen Hong, Andy (Chen Yang), Ken, Baby and sister . Andy drove the new car his dad bought for him , Honda Civic 1.8 . The car is pretty and Andy told us some stuff when he is driving the car, is damn funny . Hahahahas !!! Finish eating, Chit Chat for a while at there and Andy send us home :)

Yesterday meet up with Shiwei, Ken and Baby for dinner cum supper . Wait-ed for Sis to finish work . Went to fetch Ken then Shi Wei . When Bugis for Steamboat . We have lot of fun there . We are the most noisy group I think . We laugh loudly and talks loudly . Hahas !!! Ken is damn disgusting, I SWEAR . Anyway , his Prada Bag is nice I must said :) We can have dinner cum supper next time when we have nothing to do at night :)

2009-10-29T21:51:00.010+08:00

I am going to upload Shiwei and Jian Birthday Celebration Pictures. I know I am a little bit outdated . But nevermind . I will just upload it :) Do hope everyone had fun . Everyone sang Shiwei birthday song on Baby's van because his birthday is going to be over soon . It is special yea :) I dont know why he didnt upload the video . I swear it is funny . I will asked Mr Sng to upload it :) Going off to had supper or dont know where with Ken, Chen Yang, Chen Hong , Baby and Sister. Will update again when I am back :)

2009-10-12T21:01:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time since I last update my blog . Recently had been working , working and working Work is fun I can said . I love making Sushi :) Baby got his license , F.I.N.A.L.L.Y . Yipee !!!!! :) Almost every night, Baby will drove me , Huina, my sister and ShiWei to different place for supper :) We went Serangoon Chomp Chomp , East Coast Lagoon . And Geylang for Beancurd :) Last Friday, we went The Mind Cafe at Tampines Safra . The place is where we can play board games, eat snack and drink food . It is fun , we laugh like mad people . Will be going there again on the October 23 to celebrate Jia Jian and Stamford Birthday :) I Loves My Life, My friend and BABY !!! :) Will blog again when I have time .

2009-09-28T21:44:00.002+08:00

True Friends !!!!!

To me, a real friends is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.

I realise I dont have a true friends.
When I am sad, I wish someone was there to console me.
I look at my contact to see who was the one I can called or message , I realise nope .
I dont have one .

2009-07-25T18:11:00.004+08:00

24 July 2009

Happy 26 month Anniversary Baby :) I am really very glad that you had saw the changes in me. I hope that you will not do anything else to make me sad or angry. Some matters might be small things or nothings to you , but every small little stuff that you had done concern me . It might be a big matters to me. So I hope you will take every little stuff seriously . I am really very happy to be with you . You had become part of my life. I can't imagine what will happen to my lift without you. You are my smiling pill and destress pill. When I am sad, just by seeing you make me forget my sadness . When I am very stress, seeing you make me forget the stress that I had. I start to believe that we will last till we married. I really loves you alot. I loves you alot baby :)

22nd July 2009

Happy 2 years old Birthday to Cutie Enen :) Didnt able to attend her chalet because I had to work :( Friday, her actual birthday, Dasao and Brother went Bugis to celebrate with her. Message Da Sao but she didnt reply so I was not able to celebrate with her :( So sad.... Hope she will be Guai Guai when grow up. Dont make her Mummy angry. And also, Hope she come my house often. Long time since I last saw her. Miss her so much :(

2009-07-03T17:57:00.002+08:00

Had been really busy working this few weeks. I had to OT till 8pm almost everyday . Haix . Yesterday , went Shiwei's Grandma Funeral . Thanks Desmond for driving us there :) Glad to see Shiwei was fine . Dont Know what to say to him . But still , Take Care of yourself Mr Sng . After that , home sweet home . Ken when Boat Quay for drinking session !! Baby came over my house to stay over :) Today is my Off Day . Yes, My only off day . But, I am staying at home :( Baby had school today . Went back school to take my testimonial with Chen Hong. Sorry to let him wait for 1 hour =X He is so funny la, Dont even know which month and year it is now. Hahas . Bus-ed back after we had taken our testimonial . So here I am blogging . What a boring day :(

2009-06-26T12:46:00.002+08:00

1.)The person who asked me to do .- XianEng
2.) Your relationship with him or her .- Friend
3.) Your first impression on him/her .- Dont Really Know Him !
4.) Your most memorable moment with him/her ?- Don't have
5.) The most memorable thing you said to him/her ?- Nothing
6.) If him/her becomes your lover?- Never Ever
7.) If him/her becomes your lover , what would you like him/her to improve on ?- Nothing
8.) If him/her becomes your enemy , what will you do ?- Not sure
9.) If him/her becomes your enemy , what will be the reason ?- Attitude Problem
10.) The most desired thing you want to do for her/him now are:- Nothing
11.) Your overall impression on her/him:-Talks a lot
12.) The characteristic you love most about yourself:- Funny?
13.) The characteristic you hate most about yourself:- Attitude
14.) The most ideal person you want to be is :- My Boyfriend:)
15.) For people that care and like you, say something to them:- I LOVES YOU ALL!!!
16.) Pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you:1)Miss Ngia .2)Shirley Darling .3)Mr.Sng .4)Miss Lim (My Sister) .5)Stella Jie .6)Keith Bestie .7)Baby (My Boyfriend) .8)Jemaine .9)Merlene .10)Jocelyn .
17.) Who is 6 having a relationship with ?- Dont Know the name
18.) Is 9 a male or female ?- Female
19.) If 7 and 10 were together, would it be a good thing ?- N.O !!! 7 is my boyfriend!!!!
20.) What is 2 studying at the moment ?- Republic Poly
21.) When was the last time you had a chat with 3 ?- Hmm , Last week
22.) What kind of music does 8 like ?- I Dont Know
23.) Does 1 have any siblings ?- Yeah :)
24.) Will you woo number 3?- Big Big No ....
25.) How about 7 ?- Of Course. We are already together :)
26.) Is 4 single ?- Nope
27.) What's the surname of 5 ?- . Chen
28.) What's the hobby of 5 ?- Drink ?
29.) Do 5 and 9 get along well.- They dont even know each other. What do you think ?
30.) Where is 2 studying at ?- Republic poly . Why ask again ?
31.) Say something casual about your eyes :-Small :(
32.) Have you tried developing feelings for 5 ?- I am Not A LESBIAN !!!
33.) What colours does 4 like ?- Baby Blue
34.) Are 5 and 1 good friends ?- Nope, Just Friend
35.) Does 7 like 2 ?- Of Course NO!!!
36.) How did you get to know 2 ?- Secondary School Friends :)
37.) Does 1 have any pets ?- Yea. A lot . Rabbit and I dont know what
38.) Is 7 the sexiest person in the world ?- Nope. Is Most Handsome :)
39.) How is 4 related to you ?- Twin Sister [:
40.)Describe 4 .- She is Noisy and Irritating.
Done XianEng:)

2009-06-24T13:01:00.002+08:00

20th June 2009

Currently, I still loves my new job. I get to learn lots of stuff. During weekdays, I will be at the Company Office which is at Golden Mile tower. I will do some accounting jobs and filing jobs. During weekends, I will be working at Manpuku which is located at Tampines 1 Level 3. Try it if you have not :) I am making sushi at there . So far, I had learn to make all kind of sushi expect for handroll. Promise Baby that, the next time he came Manpuku, I will treat him the sushi that I make for him :) My only off day is at Friday . So I will only be free on friday, which means lesser time to spend with Baby :(

24 June 2009

Happy 25months Anniversary Baby !!!! I am glad that we are still together when so many things had happen in the past . I did not regret forgiving you when you had done so much things. Till now , I am really really very happy to be with you . You had seriously make my days . When I am moody, just by seeing you , make me feel very happy :) Although you are not my first boyfriend, but I wish and hope that you will be my last :) I hope that we will still be together till the day I past away . Baby, I really loves you alot :)

2009-06-19T11:50:00.002+08:00

16th June 2009

Had a dating with Baby . Just Baby and Me :) I loves it . Hehe !!! Went Baby house to meet him first . Wait-ed for him to prepare then we train-ed down to Raffles Place . Baby thought he will be able to get his pay but the Manager told him wrongly . So Baby and I trained down to Marina Square. After walking around, we decided to had Pariss for Dinner. Y.U.M.M.Y!!! We start eating from 5.30pm and ends at 8.30pm . WOW!! We had dinner for 3hours . Haha. We went to shop around also to digest our food . We went to the small arcade and play-ed a game . I dont know how to describe . Didnt manage to get any toy :( Train-ed back to Tampines after that. Wait-ed for Sister to off work and went home together . 12am, Baby went home :(

17th June 2009

My first day working at a new office. I love the environment and people compare to my previous company. There is only 3 worker in the office include me :) But I am still working at Golden Mile Tower. So as usual , I had my breakfast and Lunch with my 2 previous company admin :) Miss them so much . They also told me that the Auntie which is selling Malay food Miss me alot and wants me to had lunch at her stall today . Haha !!! She is so cute :) Ends work at 7.30pm. OT !!! Bought food home. And And And , I more things. My parents when oversea for Holiday . So the house only left My Sister, 2 Brothers and Da Sao . But my Da Sao and Brother also went overseas. So only Left My sister, Brother and I . Everyday when I reach home , I had to Hang the clothes, Fold the clothes and Iron . My stupid sister only put the clothes into the washing machine. She is an I.D.I.O.T !!! Hahas , Feeling better now :)

2009-06-16T23:11:00.005+08:00

15th June 2009

Today is my last day at Accredit HR Consultancy . I felt so relief because I had finally left this ghost place. Have not been really happy working at this company. But all I will Miss is My 2 Sales Manager and 2 admin . I will miss the time where we chat together at Msn . The drawing that Uncle Tay drew on Msn, that make us laugh like nobody business. Miss having lunch with my 2 admin also. But I am happy at my new place too :) We still can meet up for lunch :) Take care !!!

14th June 2009

Baby and I wake up at 10.30am. Prepare and wait for My family and Brother to get ready . Off we went to Paramount Hotel for Dim Sum. Meet 2nd Auntie and her family straight at there . We had Dim Sum at 11am and ends at 3pm. This is the first time I had Dim Sum for so long. Is like having wedding dinner. My cousin was so angry that he asked the Manager to come and wants to lodge a complaint. The Manager knew that their service was not good . So he offer us free dessert. After that home-sweet-home. Slack at my house awhile and cab-ed back to Baby house . Had dinner at his house . Bus-ed back my house after that :) 12am, Baby went home.

13th June 2009

Went Healthzone with Wanrong, Sister and Baby. It was so fun :) Before that, went interview at Bugis . Sister accompany me :) After that, meet Baby and Wanrong at Bugis Train. Went in until 5pm and went off . I realise that I had become very fat :( I must exercise already. Train-ed back to Tampines . Accompany Sister for her Medicure and Pedicure. After that, went home for dinner. Hui Na came to meet us . Around 10pm plus, Bus-ed to Bedok for K-session :) Everything ends at 3am. Cab home . Baby and Wanrong stay over at our house :)

2009-06-10T19:47:00.003+08:00

Friday 5th June 2009

After work, went over to Tampines 1 find Sister . She lied to me that she had off work . When I went there , She told me she cannot knock off yet . So I went in to chat with Mr.Koh(Her Boss) and Ah Long :) I swear the 2 of them are very funny . Make me laugh until stomach cramp. We ate Prawn Noodle but it was too awful that we threw it away after eating few mouth . Sister off work at around 8pm plus so Mr Koh, Ah long, Sister and I went coffee shop to La-Kopi . Haha !!! Went off awhile, went to meet Baby at my house downstair. Watch television all . 11pm plus , Huina, My sister, Baby and I bus-ed down to Giant . We decided to eat Steamboat. So we went there to buy the ingredient :) Finish eating , slack awhile . 3am plus, Baby and HuiNa bus-ed home.

6th June 2009

Mum cooked Steamboat today :) YUMMY!!! Wait for Baby to come over as he went Singapore Post to do something . When he is eating , I went to bathe and prepared . Bus-ed back to his house, he pack some clothes for tomorrow because we are going gym :) Back to my house and eat steamboat :) Finish eating , we bus-ed down to E!Hub for movie session :) Had Super Dog for Supper . YUMMY !!! Slack awhile and went in for our show, Drag Me To Hell !!! Overall the show is nice but the sound is too loud . Make me nearly deaf . Cab back after the show :)

7th June 2009

Was suppose to go gym but Baby forget to bring his track shoe and he is wearing slipper . So we had no choice but to give it a miss :( Mum cook Curry so we ate it . At night, we order FKC for dinner :) 9.30pm, Went Baby house slack awhile then back to my house :)

2009-06-03T19:49:00.006+08:00

愛是一種需要一種缺乏所以我們都喜歡情歌
不管愛在進行中還是仍未萌芽
不管你愛他比較多還是他愛你比較多
愛或被愛其實都是一種喜悅
在朋友那兒聽說痴心的你曾回來過
想請他替我向你問候只為了怕見了說不出口
你對以往的感觸還多不多曾讓我心碎的你
我依然深愛著
在朋友那兒聽說知心的你曾找過我
我要他幫我對你隱瞞只是怕見了面會更難過
我對以往的感觸還那麼多曾給我幸福的你
我依然深深愛著
有一種想見不敢見的傷痛有一種愛還埋藏在我心中
我只能把你放在我的心中
這一種想見不敢見的傷痛讓我對你的思念越來越濃
我卻只能把你把你放在我心中
對你的聲音你的影你的手
我發誓說我沒有忘記過
而關於你選擇了現在的他
我只能說我有些難過
我也真心真意的等過

I have been really really very Emo this few day !!! I dont know what had happen to me . Relationship is making me going mad . I dont know what exactly I can do to forget the past . I just had the fear . I am just fear that history will repeat itself . I dont know how to forget. If she didnt exist, I know that we will definitely be much more happy now . But why , just why can't I forget ?? Do you still Loves her? Miss her ?? Tear start to lose control and Flow down without my permission when I alway thought of this even when now I am typing this post :'( It really make me thought that I am the third parties of the 2 of you . Why must you be so unfair to me ? Her heart is fragile, you can't break her heart . You cant hurt her . My heart is fragile too . Had you thought of me ? My heart hurt easily too . You can't bear to break her heart, can't bear to hurt her feeling, then what about mine ?

Thanks Cheryl for advicing me . I know you will alway be there for me . But I will not disturb you for the time being because your O level is arriving . You had to concentrate . I shall not bother you about my problem . But anyway Thanks for listening to my problem :)

Thanks Xueling Darling !!! I really Loves her to the core . She will alway be the one who is willing to let me vent all my sadness to her and she wont feel irritating , she will even be a good listening ear giving me advice on what to do . I loves talking to her because she will tells me alot of things . I loves you darling :) Meet up soon :)

I swear this will be the last emo post of mine !!! I will be happy the next time I post :)

2009-06-01T20:50:00.003+08:00

Looking through your eyes,
there's nothing to hide
And you're no longer mine
How could I survive
when you say goodbye
Why do birds still fly up high?
Can't stop the tears from fallin'
We used to be so fine
when you walked into my life
I tried to reach out for you
just to be with you
My heart is breakin'
Don't Don't Go Away
Baby, don't you know, I miss you so.
Don't Don't Go Away,
I've never been on my own before.
Can't you hear me just take me with you
So don't don't go away
So won't you feel my heartbeat once more

The true is alway cruel . Had not been in a good mood this feel days . Feeling Emo !!! Tearing almost every night . I dont know how long can I stand this kind of feeling . I dont know what to do . No one to console . No one to talk to . No one to share with . All I can do is to hide it to my heart or cry out during the night . Crying make me feel tired . Can we really last ? Will your really cherish it ? Will the history repeat itself again ? Can I still trust you ? Are your word true ? Lots and lot of questions without answer . Even if there is an answer , I will still doubt the answer . What else can I do ?? All I can do now is to lead a happy life . And let nature take course. Can I really do it ? I dont know . I had lose confidence of myself . I am tired of my life !!! Can I end my life ??

2009-05-25T15:02:00.011+08:00

22nd May 2009

With Marcus . I am glad with are fine :)

With Bestie . It been a long time since I last saw him :)

I Loves the 3 of you. Friend Forever:) I LOVES ALL OF YOU :)

Dont know why Baby stand so far from me :(

Cousin (Mum God-Daughter also), Brother, Da Sao and Mummy :)

Make a wish

Our Sushi Cake :) Pretty ??

Happy 18 Birthday to me !!! I am legal to watch M18 show(sound like a retard). Open a chalet with Baby, Stella and Sister as our birthday are close to each other . Before that , went work for halfday . Malay stall auntie treat us Nasi Bryani . Both my admin and I went to Singapore Flyer. Boss gave us the ticket . Actually he should be going with us , but he is occupied with some stuff , so he give it a miss . We asked our saleman to join us , but he was too busy too. So end up, only the 3 of us went . But still, we had fun. We are VIP !!!! We had the whole cabin by ourselves and free 1 cup of cocktails. The scenery in the afternoon is not very nice . We want to get ticket from Boss again and we go at night . This time round, I will probably go with Baby . *Romantic* We had only small cup of cocktail but my face was red like a monkey butt . Haha !!! Cab to MRT station and train down to Tampines 1 . Bought 1 top for Wanrong . 2 top for Sister . A Burberry wallet and TopMan top for Baby . Hope they loves the birthday present :) Went back home to help Mum . Then Shiwei, Sister, Baby and I took cab down to check in . Our hand was so tired due to the heavy stuff we had to carry . Went cheers to buy Charcoal, Drink, etc. Start BBQ-ing . Family member and Friend start to turn up at around 8pm plus . Had lots of fun I swear.

Thanks Shirley Darling, Jonathan, Xian Eng, Keith Bestie, Marcus, Xiang Ding and Friends, Ken Ho, Dong Han, Chen Hong, Andy, Huina and Friends and to people who had turn up but i didnt name .I LOVES YOU ALL !!! ALL OF YOU MADE MY DAYS :)

I am very very happy to see Shirley Darling . Miss her so much . She become prettier too :)

Specially Thanks to HuiNa and Friend who had bought the Guess Bag , I loves it . Shiwei and Friends who had bought the Birthday cake. Stella Jie who bought Bio Essence whitening cream for me :)

23 May 2009

Stella and Baby Birthday cake :)

Celebrate Baby and Stella advance birthday today :) Sleep until 11am plus . Watch television and fall asleep halfway . Haha !!! 3pm plus , Bathe , Make up and all . Went E!Hub to walk around . Bought a drinking game for Stella as Birthday present :) We also went Fairprice to buy Tidbits, Drinks and some food for tonight BBQ . Back to Chalet . Start BBQ-ing . I am the Chef of the day and Samuel is my assistant . Haha !!! Not as much people as the first day . But still, we enjoyed our days . At night, Play card game and drink . Around 1am plus . Wanrong is back and we celebrate his 21st birthday for him :)

24 May 2009

Happy 2 Years Anniversary Baby :) It's been 2 years since we are together , time passes really fast . I dont know how long can we be together . I dont wish to think of the future of us . I dont know if we can really last . But for now , I just want the both of us to be happy . I dont want to think of anything else . During the past 2 years , I had drop many tears for you , I hope it is all worth . I hope you will really cherish me and your last chance . Is not that you are not a good boyfriend in my heart or mind , just that you loves to lie , I hate it . When we are first together , I thought you will not lie to me and be faithful to be because you said you hate people who lie and you had been hurt before and you know the feeling of being hurt . But I was wrong . I just hope that you wont lie to be anymore . Because if the next time you lie , we will never ever be together again. I loves you a lot . I hope you are . I am really very very happy to be with you . Hope you are too . Hope you like the necklace I gave you :)

25 May 2009

It is Baby's 19 birthday . After work, I went Tampines 1 Urban Writes to buy a notebook and Birthday Card for Baby. He wants a notebook to write all his school works so I bought 1 for him . A birthday card , which I drew some stuff and wrote some words in it . I am really glad that he loves it . Especially the card :) Went Sakae Sushi for dinner . I want to treat him but he said I had spend too much on his present and dont allow me to pay :( Walk around Tampines 1 . Went Young Generation . He had alway wanted to buy a pillow because his house that dirty and smelly pig is very disgusting . So we look around and he made a very very long decision on what to get . Finally , he bought a Elephant Bolster . Very Very cute :) Went arcade for a while then back to my house :)

26 May 2009

My saleman , treat both my 2 admin and I lunch . A birthday treat :) Actual plan was to eat buffet, but it took too much time as our lunch had only 1hour . So he brought us to Raffles Place Out of the Pan for lunch :) Another Salesman was suppose to tag along but he was too busy , so he give it a miss . We wants to ask him bring us to Boozer Room as a birthday treat :) The food at Out of the Pan was delicious . Recommended to all reader :) They wrap the food with crepe . YUMMY!!!! Then we had the dessert too . I had Banana Spilt Boat . On the bottom, it had 1 waffle, the Banana and some sauce, above the Banana there is another waffle and on top of the waffle, there is 2 ice-cream . Oh My God, It Is Super Duper Yummy :) Next time bring Baby go eat also :)

2009-05-19T21:22:00.001+08:00

Trust is faith.

Trust is something you believe in.

Trust can only be true between people who really trust each other.

Lies go no where and no one can go far with out trust.

Trust is a war between the heart and the brain.

Im scared to trust now.

I had my trust broken many times before.

I was left a broken girl.

I still am broken inside.

My trust cant be broken again.

So dont ask me to trust Cos I don't know if I can do it.

Im really scared to trust.

I told myself , I should give you one last chance and to trust you again . Many people also told me that you did really Loves me , you wish you could cherish me . But from the incident which had happen that day make me knows that you are still the same . You lie to me . Just a little stuff and you lie to me . Actually when you told me that was your brother's, I did really believe you and this is not the first time I ask you those stuff belongs to who . But after that day , when i realise you were lying to me , my heart hurts. It hurts alot and alot . But i cant do anything anymore . I dont know what else can I say , what else can I do . This will be the last chance I will give you . No more . I still Loves you like how I do . Really !!

2009-05-18T10:25:00.003+08:00

Nothing is going smoothly for me . Relationship, I seem to lose confident. I don't know what happen . Is it me being sensitive or unreasonable. It will soon be 2 years we had been together , but she is still the problem between us . Don't you think so ? I am tired of it already . You knew it too . Those messages was the 1st year present you gave. 2nd year, were those memories of you and her ? I hate this kind of anniversary present . It hurts me . How many years must we go on with her surrounding us ? Keeping all those stuff are you going to tell me that you are still loving her , missing her and missing those happy memories ? You wish that she can be back at your side ?? I dont know . Maybe it is true . It seem that I am the third party in this relationship . I am breaking the both of you up . What do you want me to do ?? Am i such a horrible girlfriend ? I had done my best to maintain this relationship . I thought that we can really be very very happy because she had finally left in this relationship but it seem that I am wrong . She still exist . The misses you had on her, the loves you had in her, the happy memories you had with her had start to build a wall between us . You seem to be so near to me but your heart is so far from me . What can I do to had your heart back ?? What else can I do ?? Haix...

Work, I start to hate my current job. I hate the colleague, the working environment and Boss . This is my first time seeing a boss who doesnt had his own decision . Who dont act like a boss . She sweet talk and then listen to her all the way . I dont respect you at all because you dont act like you are a Boss to me . Example my pay . You change and change and change . First you gave me 5.5 buck . Then you increase and gave me 6 buck . Now you give me basic of 1000 when she keep irritate. Why just cant you make the decision ?? Just ask her to Shut her mouth and dont say this anymore , you had already make the deicision ?? 1000 is just too little dont your think so ?? You think i really come in at 10am sharp and go off at 6pm sharp ?? I did do OT too . First time you tell me , you dont want to give me basic . Never ever want . So okay , just use punch card. Now i want use back punch card but you dont allow ?? What The Hell is this ?? You said you want to cut cost , so you cut my pay ??My pay is already so little . Why cut mine . I just ask for another 200 buck . Hello , just by every month saving that 200 buck can help you ?? Might as well cut the ghost salary . Each cut until 800 basic . You will save 2000 buck a month ... See the difference ?? Are you stupid or brain-less. Haix ... I wanna find a new job and leave my current job as soon as possible . I couldnt stand this kind of Boss anymore . I dont wish to see his face too .
People, if you had job intro me , Kindly message me or whatever . Just tell me ... Thanks :)

2009-05-14T10:28:00.012+08:00

This fews days had been meeting Baby :) He will alway come my house and do his homework . Whenever he come , he will do something . But i am not gonna reveal, if not he will be killing me . Haha !! Nothing much to blog actually . Nothing happen recently too . Peaceful . Had been chatting with Jemaine this few days too . Will meet her up soon too :) Next week is gonna be a busy week . Cause my birthday is near . Lot of things to prepare for my Chalet . People who I had invited, pleass try your best to come :) I hope Shirley, Fanglin and Affia can really come because it's been a long time since I last saw them .Take this time as a gethering too :) Next Monday or Tuesday, gonna meet up with my Ivor and friends for dinner . Hopefully they wil be free . Wednesday going Town with Hong to get Baby Present . Hopefully , Hong wont go and tell him what I am gonna get for him :) Thursday, gonna had dinner with my colleague . As an advanced birthday celebration . Friday, work halfday as Boss is gonna treat me eat lunch :) Lots of thing i wanna get, hopefully I can get it by August :) All is Facial Product .

1. Amway vitamin E . It will help reduce my face and leg scar . Also good for my health .

2. NK Spray . Jemaine is using it and she find it nice . I hope she can get it for me from her boss :)

3. Estee Lauder Double Wear Foundation. Also Jemaine is using it . She find it good . So i am gonna get it.

4. Estee Lauder

Smoothing Creme Concealer. Never try before. Wanna give it a try

5. La Mer Night Cream .

6. SK2 Whitening Source Clear Lotion. I want to be white . I am black :(

I think that is all . Not much actually :) I will faster get it soon . Hope my dream come true .... Haha !!!

2009-05-11T10:39:00.004+08:00

Sunday 10th of May

Over to Baby house to meet him . Packed food for him too :) Baby said the noodle MaMa cook was too spicy . Hahas !!! Slack at his house all the way . 6.30pm , went down to buy dinner. But due to Mother's Day , the coffee shop was packed with people . Was so irritated because Baby took a long time to decide what to eat. I am very Hungry, Hot and Tired at that time . So obviously , I give him bad attitude . Sorry Baby !!! 10pm , went back to my house and we watch 天才冲冲冲, laugh until I cannot breathe . Hahas !!! 12am, Baby went home and I Went to sleep :)

Saturday 9 May

Meet Baby straight at Eunos Platform. Walk around then went Cine for lunch . I didnt eat because i had already ate . Walk around . Then over to Taka, bought some food as Baby is not full yet. Bought Octopus Ball and Mochi . YUMMY!!!! When Far East to walk around . Meet Sister and Wanrong there . 10pm plus , train-ed back to Tampines . Bought ticket for Uninvited . Went arcade to play photohunt . Then over to Pastamania for Supper . 12am, went to buy drink and went in for our show . Overall , the show is okays . But it is quite stupid because end up everything is just dreaming and imagination .

Friday 8 May

After work, train-ed down to Tampines Mall . Had Crystal Jade for dinner also as an advanced celebration for Mother's Day and MaMa Birthday :) Baby came along too . The food that was just so-so . Not that nice . The dessert is so awful . Went Fairprice to shop for amenities. Then they drive home while Baby and Me walk home. HAPPY MOTHER DAY :)

2009-05-07T20:55:00.003+08:00

Working Working and Working ... I am working every weekday . Same routine everday . Morning wake up , go work . Finish work latest 6.30pm , take train back home . On the way home , read Twilight . Reach home , switch on the computer, took a bathe . Watch Gu Ling Jing Tan . Baby came and meet me . 12am , he went home . I went to bed . Everyday the same old routine . Even Chen Hong knew . Hahas !!! Anyway had been chatting with Hong Ling for the past few days . I hope she is fine by now . I know she had become strong after so many thing happen . I am happy then she is fine , although it is tough for her , but i know she can do it . I also knew that the 2 of us are similar . We have the same thought over relationship . We seem to be close after this fews days chat . Hope can meet her out next time :) To guys out there , may it be you are flirt or faithful . Never ever regret after you lose something which is important to you . Learn from every mistake . Not everyone will had second chance . So if you did had a second chance , do cherish it . Dont think that when everything happen , when you break with your girlfriend , she will definitely be with you as she still love you . You will be shock when she had already make her decision to end this relationship . By the time , it will be too late for you to regret.

BELOW ARE SOME PICTURE OF CUTIE ENEN !! ALSO BABY BESTFRIEND :)

2009-05-04T10:52:00.002+08:00

Monday 27th April 2009, went to watch 17 Again with Baby . Before that, he went home for dinner first . I went home for my dinner also . Mum cook porridge, because Brother didnt help Mum to look after and it was burned. So Da Sao, Brother and I went S11 to buy dinner . Baby came up my house while i was eating to wait for me . 9pm , over to Golden Village for our show . Overall, the show is nice . So funny. After the movie, went back my home . Slack all the way till 12am . Baby went home

Thursday 30th April 2009, didnt meet Baby today because I am going Sauna and Steam with my Colleague after work . Overall, I like Sauna compare to Steam. Finish everything at around 9pm plus . Trained home :)

Friday 1st April 2009, went Baby house to meet him . Went down to buy KFC for lunch . YUMMY !!! Actually Baby dont let me eat because I had sore throat . But i beg him and he agree :) Finish eating, slack at Baby house all the way . Around 7pm plus, went back home . Bought dinner back too :) Baby slack at my house all the way . Around 10pm plus, Shiwei, Wanrong and Huina came . They slack all the way t0 6.ooam.

Saturday 2nd April 2009, went Baby house to meet him . Around evening time, went Tampines walk walk. Had Dinner at Century Square foodcourt. 9pm plus, went home . Around 10pm plus , train-ed down to Bugis drink :) Baby was Dead Drunk . Hate it when he is drunk . Took care of him . Around 4am plus , went opposite my house for supper . Brought Baby back to my house to rest . Actually want ask him to sleep over but he dont want . So 6.30am , wake him up to ask him go home . After calling for a very long time , he finally wake up and even beat me :( Idiot Baby , BULLY ME !!!!

Sunday 3rd April 2009, went Baby house to meet him . Packed food for him. Then watch Star Award . So weird about the Star Award, why didnt the small kids get award when they did announce who was in . Weird !!! Had Dinner at Baby house . Slack at his house all the way till 9pm plus and went back my house . HuiNa was at my house too . Watch 天才冲冲冲 the show is so funny . Everyone of us was laughing like mad people. Hahas!!! Ate Maggie as Baby and I was hungry :) Baby went home at 12am .

2009-04-27T12:26:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 23 MONTH ANNIVERSARY BABY:)

Hope Baby and I will last long long :) It will soon be 2 years since we had been together . Felt really happy to be with you . Hope you are too !!! I dont know in future, will you still tell any lies but i hope you wont anymore . It will still need times for me to trust you . As lots of things you had done in the past which make me dont know if i should really trust you . It is also quite difficult for me to trust you . I dont wish that if i start to trust you , you lie to me again . Hope you will understand and i know you will right ? :) Whatever it is , I still loves you like how i used to from the start we are together . I hope that no matter what happen in the future , may it be due to other girls or guys or other stuff that cause us to have a big quarrel , we will still not say break easily . We will solve it together and face the obstacle together . Dont say break easily. Once break , dont know if we will be together again . Dont make any decision that will make each other regret . But till now , i felt that we are really happy not much quarrel too . I loves it this way :) I LOVES YOU BABY !! HOPE YOU ARE READING THIS :)

25th March 2009, went to watch Friday the 13th with Huina , Shiwei, Ken, Wanrong, Sister and Baby. Before that, went over to meet Baby at his place . Slack all the way and went down Tampines for dinner . Meet Sister, Shiwei and Wanrong at Tampines. Baby and I went Tampines 1 Newurbanmale first to buy my slipper :) Had Fish & Co for dinner. After eating , went to buy our movie ticket then meet Huina outside Century and they went my house . Rush for our movie as we were gonna be late , went we reach downstair , then i realise i didnt bring the ticket, so had to go back again . Hahas !!! Went to buy snack and went in for our movie . Overall , the movie is really really nice . Highly recommended. The way he killed people ios really disgusting man !!! Actually we wont be able to watch as it is a M18 show but end up because the Uncle help us so we are able to watch. Thanks you Uncle :)

2009-04-21T09:38:00.002+08:00

Saturday, Cutie Enen came to my house . She disturb me sleep . So, i wake up, wash up and have my breakfast cum lunch . Fishball noodle. She also wants to eat when she saw me eating . Brother's noodle was too spicy because he put chilli in his soup. So i let her eat mine. Feed her with the noodle . She is super duper cute . When Dad gave her Yakult . She took the Yakult and Immediately said 谢谢你 (Thanks you) Everyone was like laughing . Hahas !! Promise to put her picture next time when i am free . After that , over to meet Baby . Slack at his house till 6pm plus then we went back to my house for dinner . Finish eating , rest awhile and went to meet Shiwei and Tanah Merah MRT Station. Train-ed down to Cityhall , over to Raffles City . Bought nothing . Shag . Back to Tampines . Actually we wanted to go fish spa but it was closed. So we went to catch a movie, Taken . Bought Snack and went in for out show . Overall , the show is very very nice . Everything was like so excited. There is not even one boring part .Every part will make you nervous and wish to know what will happen next . Highly recommend . People remember to go watch if you had not :)

Sunday, over to meet Baby. Pack food and soup for him again . Finish eating , slack at his house all the way until 6pm plus . Eat OTAH and Fish cooked by his Mum. Finish eating , Baby went to prepare and off we went to Tampines 1 . Meet Sister but she was too long so we went to walk around . Baby bought a Top and Pant while waiting for Sister . But she also bought a Cap for Wanrong . Went over to Manpuku Restaurant to eat . But the time was quite late . 9pm plus . So most of the food had finished . Saw MR KOH and he treat me his stall Sushi :) Thanks MR KOH !!! By the way his stall is called Kai . Finish eating , went to walk around . Went to newurbanmale and i bought a slipper . Baby went to Man Master and bought a jacket . Back to my house after that . Slack all the way till 11.15pm and Baby went home :)

Yesterday, after work went home to eat . Because Boss bought Ice-Milo for us . I was too full after drinking . So i did not eat went i reach home :) Wait for Sis to come back from work and Baby to reach my house . It was 9pm went we leave the house . Meet Huina at Mama Shop and off we went for our Fish Spa . It was fun i think but not much effect . It didnt really make my feet smooth . Didnt really eat my dead skin . But nevermind , it is fun and cheap . Gonna go back again on Saturday :) Back to my house after that . Watch American Next Top Model and Slack all the way till 11.15pm . And they went home because tomorrow they still had lesson and i still had to work .

2009-04-11T14:42:00.003+08:00

Sunday, wake up early in the morning to Shao Mu. So tiring . After that , send Mum to work and over to SengKang to fetch Enen :) After that , went Tampines Mall Cotton On as Da Sao wants to buy top . After that , went Tampines 1 . Bought Subway and back to my house . Play with Enen . She keep take my phone open and close because got light she like . Then she like to kiss my phone . Hahas . Keep play with her . Then Baby come my house . She scared of Baby at first , but after Baby keep play with her , she become best friend with Baby . Keep ask Baby play with her . Enen is very cute . When i have time , i will post her picture and let everyone of you see :)

Went to watch The Sniper with Shiwei, Huina, Sister, Wanrong and Baby . Before that , went to meet Baby at his house . Packed food for him again . Slacked at his house all the way till 6pm plus . Went to eat ice-cream and Kit Kat. 7pm plus , eat Yong Tau Fu . His mum cook . He eat with Mian Xian while i eat with Macaroni :) Finish eating , wait for him to prepare and off to Tampines to meet them . Overall , The Sniper is nice to me but for the rest i dont know :)

Friday went to watch Knowing with Ken, Shiwei, Huina, Wanrong, Sis and Baby . Went to meet Baby. Then we went Tampines 1 to meet the rest . Saw Shirley and Jonathan at Tampines Popular . So coincidence . Hahas !! Went Tampines 1 together as Shirley wants to buy the whole set of Twilight. Shiwei is member and he had 22% discount . Hahas!! After that , went Sushi Tei for dinner , Shirley and Jonathan went off first . Went back to my place, help Shiwei to wrap his book . Then walk to Century Square for our movie :) Ken was back from Taiwan, he said he luggage is lost. Think somebody take it . We was at first worried , like why missing. But after knowing he didnt bought anything from us , we ignore . Hahas !!! Overall , Knowing is a nice show . People who didnt watch , must go watch . Recommended :)

2009-04-07T18:06:00.003+08:00

Saturday went to watch Jackie Chan show with Sis, Wanrong , Ken, HuiNa, Shiwei and Baby. Before that , over to Baby house to meet him. Pack food for him . Slack at his house all the way until 7pm plus, back to my house for dinner . After dinner , show all the way till 10.45pm. Over to Century Square to collect our movie ticket. Slack at MacDonald. 11pm plus , walk back for our show . Overall , the show is not really that nice . But it is still fine . I find some part quite boring . Nearly fall asleep .

好讨厌在家哦，在家里一点也不开心。几乎每天都听到妈妈的老套声，听到爸爸的骂人声。我在家里唯一能开心的就是呆在房里，因为门一关上什么声音都没有了，变得好安静。可是我又讨厌一个人的感觉。唯一能让我开心的就是看见Baby 可是他又每次做一些事让我好伤心好难过。我到底在什么时候是真的很开心？？我自己也不知道。我到底做错了什么？我是不是上辈子欠你还是伤害你？？你这辈子来报仇。为什么要这么伤害我？我不想再被伤害了，能吗？？我有时还是会不由得想，你现在还会不会想起她呢？你说过，她的电话号码你是这辈子也不会忘的，你现在真的还记得吗？？会不会不由自主的按她的号码，想打给她问她还好吗，还是想放一则短讯问候她？和我在一起的时候，会不会想起她，把我当成她呢？当你对我说甜言蜜语的时候，是不是其实想和她说的呢？当我们去你和她去过的地方的时候，会不会想起和她在一起的日子呢？我真的不知道你在想什么。我好讨厌猜测你在想什么。你呢告诉我吗？？

眼泪不由自主的从脸颊落下。。。。模糊了我的视线。。。。

2009-04-03T16:11:00.003+08:00

1st April 2009

April Fool Day today. Did anyone of you get trick or did you people trick anyone ? Xiangding wanna to trick me but i did not fall into his trip . I know he was lying to me . Hahas :) Try harder next time . Had dinner with my 2 sales Manager and 2 Admin . We had lunch at 11pm plus . That was the earliest lunch i had . Hahas !!! Went East Coast Sushi Tei but it was close and only open at 12pm . My salesman thought is was a April Food Trick . Hahas !! So we went VivoCity Sushi Tei . They order lots of Raw food and Seafood but i couldnt eat . So i order others . Chatting , Gossip . Laughing like nobody business . I loves having lunch with them . They are just so funny :)

2nd April 2009

Had McDonalds Breakfast . Salesman treat :) Had Sausages McMuffin with Egg . It was yummy . Someone was staring at me when i was ordering . But who cares . He/She didnt ask if we want breakfast when he/she is going down to buy. So wait long if you wish i would ask you :) Was so full that we had lunch only at 3pm plus. Hahas !!! Didnt eat much during lunch too . Ate 1 egg prata and we order Indian Rojak to share :)

2009-04-01T21:28:00.002+08:00

Saturday went to watch movie Confession of a Shopaholic with Huina, Shiwei, Sister, Wanrong, Kenho, Bingqin, Xianeng and Baby. Before that , went over Baby house to meet him. Meet Shiwei and Huina at Mrt Station . Over to Clarke Quay, Baby workplace to eat . Had lots of food. Overall , the food is so-so only . Not really nice . The environnment is dirty and smelly . Finish everything at 6pm plus . Train-ed back to Tampines . Bought ticket and over to Tampines arcade . Saw ZhenChao and Justin . 9pm plus , went over to century, went to buy snack before we go inn for our movie . Didnt wait for Sister they all as they were late . Huina went out to pass them the ticket when they reached. Overall , the show is funny and awesome :) Worth watching . Play pig game nearby my house . Then they went up to my house to continue . Slack till 3am plus . Home Sweet Home.

Although my birthday had not reach . It was like 1month plus before the day arrive, but i receive my birthday present already :) It was given by one of my salesman at my workplace . Hahas!!! So kind of him to give me 4 Martell . Of course , i am also kind enough to take it to my chalet and share it with everyone who came to my Birthday Chalet:) People who are invited please come !!!! Haven really start to invite actually . Hahas !!!!!!!

2009-03-31T12:03:00.002+08:00

Every problem just come right at the same time. Relationship and Studies. Yesterday just had a bad argument with Baby . I dont know what i did wrong . I dont know what is wrong with this relationship. It is because of me or because of you that cause us to be in this situation ? I have been trying hard to let you have my trust , but i fail . It is because i am still not that good ? Or to you , i am very flirt ? You , asking me to to trust you , forget the past , but how when there are still girl messaging you ? Is it my fault to be so angry yesterday ? Telling me you are not flirt , but how do you want me to believe. I am tired of worrying if you did message with girl , meet up with girls, sweet talk with girls. I dont know how long can i take it . What do you really want me to do? Do you want me to hack care you , let you do whatever you want ? Or do you want me to just dont trust you, let you do what you want ? Or do you want me break with you ? Telling me that you are faithful when come to relationship, it is all just lie. If what you doing now is what you called faithful , then i can said it is veru unique. I am waiting for your answer:'(

Check out my DAE result . It is unsuccessful . Dont ask me why , i dont know why too . I choose 5 course, and it is all rejected ? How can this be , i dont understand , really dont understand . To people who hate me , you should be feeling happy now when you seeing me in this state , just go on laughing . I dont care . So , is my future gonna just stop here ? I dont know what to do . I hate it . Hate being stuck and dont know what to do next . Whatever it is , i am just going to work first. I am a real failure :'(

Not in the mood. Sorry to friends if i didnt reply your message . Dont feel like talking. Wish to be alone for a moment :'(

2009-03-26T20:30:00.003+08:00

如果你问我这世上有没有公平这件事，我会很快的回答没有。自从上班之后，我知道其实这世上根本就不公平。好吃懒做的人，薪水高，做的事又少，老板又对他们好。做到要是要命的人，薪水少，做的事又多，老板对我们既不好也很计较。他们是时候加薪老板就记得，我们是时候加薪，老板就假假不知道。这世上真的不公平，我讨厌他们，他们都是坏人。一个是假面人, 上一秒才说你的坏话，下一秒就假假队你们很好。另一个是猪八戒，整天知会吃吃吃，上网和朋友说话，讲电话。我讨厌他们

2009-03-24T12:43:00.000+08:00

Happy 22 Months Anniversary Baby. We had been together for almost 2 years . Although we had lots of quarrel , especially this week. We quarrel almost everyday . But i can assure that all the quarrel does not affect my feeling towards you . I still loves you that much :) Although you are not that caring as i wish you will be, you will do things that make me very angry with you but i still loves you alot . My bad attitude will not change until you quit smoking . I will never ever try to change my attitude until you quit smoking . If you cant quit smoking for the sake of me , then why expect me to change , Right ? I LOVES YOU BABY !!!!!!!!!!!!!

SNG SHIWEI, GET WELL SOON. YOU WILL NEVER DIE !!!!!!

2009-03-23T13:18:00.003+08:00

20th March 2009

Went to watch Race to Witch Mountain with Huina, Shiwei, Wanrong, Sister and Baby . Before that , meet Baby at MRT Platform , accomany him home to change then over to Century Square Customer Service to find the rest. Had dinner at the foodcourt . Then off to buy our movie ticket . Went to play arcade at Tampines Mall then accompany Sister and Shiwei to smoke . Slack until Wanrong come , went to buy some snack and went in for our show . Overall , the show is so boring . Dont like to watch this type of movie , make me fall asleep inside .Not recommended.

21st March 2009

Bought Mian Xian for Baby, stay at his house all the way until 8pm . Bus-ed to Tampines Mall , meet up with Wanrong, Sister, Shiwei, Huina and Yitze . Over to buy our ticket then went dinner at Ramen Den . Finish eating , wait for Ken to come . Went arcade . Went to bought some snack then in for our movie . Overall , the show is so funny and awesome . Love it !!! Highly Recommended :) Went nearby my house there to have a mini celebration for Ken :) Hope he like the gift from us . Yitze went home while the rest went up to my house . After wanrong finish eating his mee , we went down to play Pig Game while Ken went home . Played until 5.30am . Home Sweet Home.

Happy 18th Birthday Ken :) So unlucky of you , had a small accident before the day of your birthday . Take care of yourself . Dont do this kind of thing ever again . Not worth . Lucky it is a small accident . So dangerous . And you must spend so much money on your birthday . What for. Think carefully before you do anything next time . Making your Mum so worried for you . Take care of yourself , get well soon . Avoid eating those food that will harm your wound . Hope you like the present given by us :) Also , one important thing . Remember who is the one who make your face full of cream . Take revenge on the correct person . I did not even make until you ar :)

22nd March 2009

Over to meet Baby , Packed Porridge for him . So good of me to alway pack food for him . Hahas :) Told him that we are not going out the whole day of Sunday because i want to watch Channel U 9.30pm show . Got Luo Zhi Xiang :) So we packed dinner home to eat also . Hahas !!! Home Sweet Home at 11.00pm .

2009-03-18T11:17:00.003+08:00

Smile like the picture Baby :) I dont like to see you sad :( Make me no mood also. I know you wont fail if the person didnt do that . But what happen had already happen. You blame on him or angry with him also no use . He had already make you fail . You had already fail . You cant turn back the time also . I know the waiting time is very long , but no choice. You just have to wait . I know how you feel . But you can do anything . What had happen already happen . Dont sad already kay :) SMILE !!!

Girl, I know you must be feeling very angry now because of her. I know she will never ever admit. To any girl , they will also be like you so angry . All i have to say is that she is a bitch . You are just to soft-hearted to forgive your boyfriend . He made a big mistake . You still can face him ? If me, whenever i saw him , it will let me think of how he flirting with other girl . You are pretty , you can find a guy who treat you 100 more time better than him . Think carefully . All the best to you :)

2009-03-15T11:10:00.002+08:00

Friday, went to watch Coming Soon with Shiwei, Huina, Sister, Wanrong and Baby. Before that, we went to the IT Fare as i wanted to buy Lappy for Poly , went there to take leaflet first so that i can go home and decide which Lappy to buy . After that, train back to Tampines . They came over my house for dinner as Mum cooked alot . Watch television and at 10.30pm, walk over to Century Square. Overall , the show is nice, it is scary and different kind of story line compare to other horror movie. Recommended :) Went to play few rounds of Pig Game . Wanrong lose and have to be punish . He told us not to blog the video out , so i couldnt :) Home Sweet Home after that .

Yesterday, bought food for Baby . Rest at his house all the way till 6.30pm . Over to Bedok Interchange to meet Huina, Shiwei , Sister and Wanrong . After much dicussion, we decided to go Bugis for steamboat . Ate until 9plus 10 pm , over to buy puff and we play Pig Game there until the shop close. Wanrong went off to 99 while the rest slack around Bugis area. 11.30pm , over to TopOne for K session . Sing until 4.30am and Cab home .

2009-03-12T17:22:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to watch Suspect X with Sis and Huina . This show is so nice . You people should faster go and watch if you have not . Think this show is going to finish soon . This fews days hasnt been meeting Baby because he is working . Argh !!! Is not that i dont want to let him work . Is just that when he is working , he will like totally no time for me . Not even message time . Hate it !!! I hate his work !!! But what to do . If never work, he will have no money . I have no choice . But i dont know how long can i endure this kind of life . Seeing him only during weekends . It is just like sister and her boyfriend who is in army . Forget it and Endure !!! MIss Baby so much :(

2009-03-10T11:16:00.004+08:00

5th March 2009

Went to PartyWorld and Have a K session with Huina and Sister . 9pm to 1am . Home Sweet Home after that

6th March 2009

Went Thailand , 3 days 2 nights trip . Reach Thailand around 4pm. Check in hotel and off we go for shopping . Stuff there are alot more cheaper . All i do in Thailand for the 3 days are shopping . And yea i even did my nails. I did fake nail and design on my finger and toe nails and the price is just less than 20 dollar . I loves Thailand . Might be going again on December with Baby :)

Have a chat with Wendy today on Msn during work . I loves chatting with her . That is all i can say . Hahas !! We have the same thought and we talk alot of things . Shall not eloborate what we said . But hope she will be strong . Hope you are seeing this Wendy :) Last long with your boys .

Yesterday somethings happen . I dont know what to say , all i can say is that . I know now is not the time for me to really trust you fully . You just let me think that you had something hiding from me . I dont know what else can i say . By not giving me will make my thinking run wild . Maybe my thought are real , you might have been contacting her back through Friendster , so you dont give it to me . Nevermind . Do what you want . I dont wanna force you to give it to me . There is no happiness when you are being force to do something . We have a wall stuck in between us which make us cant make a step forward. I can tell you, she is the wall , she is the problem to this relationship even though things had happen going 2 years soon . I am happy being with you and i really loves being with you . I know you had change . I can see the change but i dont know why , It been 2 years ... it is very difficult for me to forget ..

2009-03-04T14:12:00.002+08:00

I am blogging in the office now :) Its been a long time since i last blog . Busy with who this few days . Friday finish work at 5.30pm. Went boss Condo to have a meeting , it is a fun one . After that , one of the sales manager send me to Tampines Mall as i am going there to meet Sis, Huina and Wanrong . Slack and Home Sweet Home . Saturday went to watch Kung Fu Chef with Huina, Shiwei, Sis, Wanrong and Baby . Overall the show is nice and funny . It is only an hour and thirty minutes show . Quite short . Finish watching , Home Sweet Home. Sunday , went to meet Baby . Then i forget what i did . Hahas!!! Weekday, work and work . Monday , went to meet Huina, Shiwei and Sis and Century after my work . Thanks Boss for driving me to MRT , as it was raining :)

Went to watch Marley and Me with Sis, Huina , Shiwei and Baby . Overall , the show is nice and touching . It is worth watching . People go and watch :) Home Sweet Home after the show . Off to play game already . Byebye:)

2009-02-27T12:34:00.002+08:00

I am so vexed, so worried and so scared. What can i do to make myself stop feeling that ? I am going to get depression soon . Bestie ask me what happen but i couldnt tell him because i have not confirm the stuff . So i could only keep it to myself . That feeling is not good . I could only feel ease when he reply or message me . Haix .... 3pm will be the answer .
This is my first time tearing in the office . Icouldnt control it . Lucky i quickly went to the toilet :'(

2009-02-23T21:50:00.003+08:00

22nd Febuary 2009

Went to meet Baby , brought over rice and kueh made by Mum for him . Watch television . Had a quarrel with Baby and i cried . Shall not elaborate more . Prepare and left the house at around 6pm plus . Over to queue for Sakae . Craving for Sushi again :) Sis and Shiwei came to meet us too . Walk around and we have nothing to do , so over to void deck. Play the 'Pig Game' it was so fun i swear . We were laughing like idiots . Hahas . 12am , Home Sweet Home :)

21st Febuary 2009

Went to meet Baby . At night, over to meet Sis, Shiwei and Wanrong . Dinner at Century Foodcourt . HuiNa came to find us after her movie session with Yitze . Bought our movie ticket, Look For A Star after dinner . Over to play our Pig Game. It was so fun and we were all addicted to it . Went for our show, overall the show is quite nice to me but everyone think it was boring . 3 Guy went to watch and talk walk out halfway . Hahas !! Went opposite coffee shop for supper . We start to play the Pig Game again. Loser had to drink a cup of drink mix with Water, Milo, 2 spoonful of soup and Chilli Sauce . The smell stink i swear . Lucky i didnt lose so i dont have to drink :) Ken was the loser as he had to drink half of the drink . Hahas !!! Home Sweet Home at 5.00am :)

2009-02-20T13:29:00.004+08:00

Baby , if you are reading my blog, this post is for you :) My future is in you hand Baby . You are my future . I did really thought of marrying you , being with you for the rest of my life . Is that possible ? I dont know , i really do hope . I do really loves you alot alot . Being with you , i have a lot of first time . You are the first guy who brought me to the zoo . You are the first get who i bring to see my mum . You are the first guy that my mum accepted . You are the first guy that know everyone of my family. Even my grandma rememeber you clearly . You are the first guy who i had watch so many movies with . You are the first guy that really let me know what eternity loves is . You are the first guy who cook for me . You are the first guy who i really wish to married . You are the first guy i really wish to spend my whole life with . You are the first guy who let me know what happiness is . You are the first and will be the last . I loves you Baby !! Dont every leave me or lie to me okay ?? I need an answer .

2009-02-19T15:02:00.004+08:00

Work Work Work , i really hate working . But no choice, work is the only way to earn money. I should have consider lucky t0 have a good boss which is funny, not strict and love to joke around . He allow us to do anything like using Msn, surf the net and watch show on computer. But i hate to wake up early, bathe , prepared and work work work . Finish working , went home eat or went out . The next day same routine . Doing the same thing everyday . Wanted to change job because this job pay is low, always sit which make me growing fat which i Hate it man !!! I want a job like waiter , high pay !!! But school is starting. Very difficult to find a new job now . So i just have to stick with it . I forget when i went for company lunch and we went Sushi Tei to eat . It was super yummy !! Going back there eat next time with Baby . I LOVES SUSHI !!!

Somtime i do wonder , if one day we really break up, who will be the one to said , what was the reason . To me , if it was me, the reason for breakup will be TRUST . We are just lack of trust . I dont know why i become so emotional when we didnt quarrel instead we are happy now. We only get to see each other 2 day a week , if you went poly, will the time we meet get short or lesser ? We are like studying at 2 different area, you at Tampines and I at Woodland . How i wish that you had never ever lie to me before , you had never ever message her before . I guess we will be more happy than now . My trust towards you will be more. Till now, i still cant forget every single things that happen in the past . Tear just drop whenever i thought of it . Fear is back when nightmare appear .Will you leave me ? I dont know the answer . She might just contact you back . Your feeling and those memories of the 2 of you will be back on your mind , you will just love her back like how you used to. Sometimes i do wonder, do you really really loves me alot now ?? I couldnt get an answer. Whenever i told you my nightmare your reply will alway be the same . I and her are just friends, i am with you now. Dont Worry . ARGHH !!! Fuck , what the hell am i thinking. Just let natural take course . FUCK !!!! I am so vexed!!!!!

2009-02-16T09:42:00.001+08:00

Wentto work in the morning . Went to eat steamboat for lunch with Sally . After Lunch Sally went home as she is not feeling well due to the haze . So i went back office to do my stuff . Boss ask me to help him do payroll. Left work at around 6.30pm. Went home change a shoes and bag then off to meet Baby at Tampines Interchange. We went to buy our movie ticket first then went Sakae for dinner :) Yummy, Long time since i last eat Sushi . Baby know i am craving for it so he decided to have Sushi for dinner. So thoughtful of him . LOVES HIM LOT !!! Hehe. Walk around Century Square while waiting for Sister and Shiwei to arrive. Bought snack before going in for the movie . Overall , the show is nice man !! When i told Sister they all that it was a Indian show they was like shock and thought i was kidding with them . Hahas !! But it is worth watching . After the show, Baby send me home :) Will only get to see him on Saturday because he will be working :( Miss him lots.

2009-02-16T00:12:00.001+08:00

Went Baby house to meet him before heading to Grandma birthday dinner. Baby cook food for me . And every dish he wrote a small note . Is so sweet of him :) I LOVES HIM ALOT !!! He cook too much until i couldnt finish, so i ask him to eat too :) Rest awhile and watch television. 5pm plus , Baby went to prepare . Then he accompany me to buy roses for my pretty ladies :) Took cab to Tampines Mall as Baby said he dont feel like taking bus -_-''' Walk around and went to buy cake for grandma :) Went my house downstair for dinner . The food is not really nice . Finish eating around 10pm plus . Meet Stella, Jeryl, Ken, Wanrong and Huina nearby my house . After much decision, we decided to go Jazz Pub. It is fun but when going home, something bad happen . He freak me out and i cried . I promise i will never go drinking with him anymore.

To my girls, Hope you all loves the gift i gave . Although it is not a expensive one but it the thoughts that count. Hope you all will hang that bear somewhere :) Have fun with all of you . Hope you all also .

2009-02-13T01:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY PEEPS!!!! How do you people decided to spend your valentine ? To me , it is my Grandma birthday so i have no choice but to go do her celebration . Baby is joining me too , as Mum asked :) So we will probably spend our valentine in the morning or afternoon :) What did you people receive from your loves one ? To me , Baby gave me a fake roses with 2 couple bear , it was cute but the bear was a little out of shape . It was the gift before Valentine arrive . When the clock strike 12.00am, Baby gave me a Couch Wrist Pouch . I loves it a lot :) I bought a GUESS? Watches for Baby , hope he like it . Sis accidentally said the price out so like , he knew it . Forget it . Not gonna share the price . If peep wanna know tag me or message me :) One more things, I will give 4 of my close friends a gift . Although it was not an expensive want , but is the thoughts that count . Hope you people will like it when you all receive it :)

2009-02-10T22:06:00.002+08:00

Work Work Work , Everyday working . Every Tuesday and Thursday after work still got tuition . So sian man !! Worst still , i am like 1 week 7days , i only get to meet Baby on weekends . Sometime he even had to work on sunday which mean we only mean 1 day a week . It is just simply torturing me . Last time , we was like seeing each other everyday , how am i going to get use to this life . Forget it , earn money is much more important now . Today at work was like so bored man !!! Anyway people , i will be opening chalet during my birthday . I know i announce too early , my birthday is on May which was like around 3 more month . So so long . Baby, Sister, Stella Jie and I will be celebrating our birthday together . We will open 2 chalet . OH MY GOD , i am so looking forward to it . Hahas !!!

Having the same nightmare almost every night . I was like waking up in the middle of the night crying . I thought i had forgotten the incident but i realise that i hasnt . I am still thinking of it , worrying of it . I hasnt given get over it . That incicent is still bothering me . I never realise that she was still the problem between us . haix .When can i really stop think of it . When can the nightmare stop haunting me . Haix.

2009-02-08T16:02:00.002+08:00

Went Jeryl and Stella friends Birthday chalet yesterday with Baby . Before going in , we went E!Hub . Dinner at NewYorkNewYork . Went in around 8pm plus. Sing birthday song and cut cake . Went back to the room to play games . Germaine came so Stella , Germaine and I went to the balcony to chat . Talk alot and we went in the room to continue chatting and also gossiping :) Loves talking to them !!! Meet up often . Then the 3 of us play card game loser had to drink . Germaine was so unlucky and she keep drinking . She drink very little because she dont like Vodka Mango, she said it taste like medicine . Hahas . Home Sweet Home around 1.30am .

I had to admit , sometimes i really missed those time we were together . We were so close last time and i share everything with you and you even told me alot of things . You know how i feel . So whenever i am feeling down i will find you and tell you all me sorrow . I feel safe to tell you because you will keep it by yourself and not tell anyone . There is times i really wish to contact you back like giving you a call or message but i dont have your contact . Was happy to heard that you actually did try to contact me too . Now i have your number and you had mine , i hope we will keep in contact and be as close as last time . You are the only friend who will understand me, Share my sorrow and laughter with me :)

2009-02-02T01:26:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to meet Baby in the afternoon . Went down to pack lunch . Watch television all the way until 7pm plus . When Baby's Mum is back , we went over to his auntie house . Ate and see his nephew play cards . Left around 9pm plus . Over to find Hui Na and Shiwei . Went up to Baby house and i went Youtube to watch my show while they watch television . Sis , Wanrong and Ken came . Watch Dvd while waiting for Zhiwei, Michael and Fenghao to come . When they reach , went to Baby's study room and they start to gamble . Around 3am plus , Michael , Wanrong and Ken went Mac for supper . Play until 7am plus . Baby won :) Huina , Sis, Ken and Wanrong took cab home while Me, Baby and Shiwei went market for breakfast . Finish eating , I went back Baby house to sleep . We slept till 5pm in the evening . Brush our teeth and watch television . Actually going Ang Mo Kio eat with his Mum and all but we were too lazy so we went down to pack KFC for dinner . Finish eating , i went to shit it all out . Hahas :) Baby fall asleep so i watch television . Home Sweet Home at 11.00pm :)

Enen New Year outfit . She look pretty in Qi Pao :)

Enen butt look fat with this outfit . But she is simply so cute .

2009-01-29T18:55:00.005+08:00

24th January 2009

We have our reunion dinner earlier . Baby and Miss Ngia is invited too :) When Tampines Mall with Sis and Miss Ngia to do a last minute shopping . Meet Baby there too . Bought a top and was helping Mum to find a sofa casing but couldnt find it . Thanks Baby for the wallet too :) Back to my house at evening time . We start to eat first , together with Dasao :) Slowly , Cousin and my 2 nephew came . They brought along Wii . Finish eating and we start to play Wii . It was so fun . Around 9pm plus , went over to Safra . Meet up with Shiwei and they decide to play Bowling . Zhiwei and Ken came after that . The guy went over to play pool . Stay there until 1am plus and Home Sweet Home :)

Happy 20th month anniversary Baby . Sorry that i gave you attitude on that day . But it seem that after you came my house today , my Mum's attitude towards you are not that bad as the first time you saw her . Hope you did have fun with my family and relative . Everyone in my house are so concern about you . Keep asking me if you are coming to Bai Nian during Chinese New Year , when release of O level result , they also keep asking me your result . *Jealous* But this is also a good start i think :) Hope we will last long . I loves you alot .

25 January 2009

Went over Baby house for reunion dinner . Reach his house around evening time . Watch television . Around 7pm plus , went down to his grandma house for dinner . Around 8pm plus , went back his house and watch television . Left his house around 11pm . Meet Sis , Ken and HuiNa at Mrt Station . I am the first to reach , all were late . Baby thought the coming train is the last one , so he chiong . In the end , it was not . Hahas . Baby went to find his friend while i meet them for movie . Watch the wedding game . Thought Zhiwei was late so we bought the 2.30am show but he reached so early . So we went to play poker . Overall , the show is not nice at all . So boring . I even fall asleep inside . No recommended . Home Sweet Home after the show .

26 January 2009

When Grandma house during evening time . Chit Chat with everyone and play poker . Around 7pm plus , went over to Cousin house as they wants to play mahjong . We order pizza too . Watch television and play Wii with nephew to kill time . They finished at around 2am . Went Ah Neh for supper . Home Sweet Home after that .

27 January 2009

Keith and Marcus came my house to Bai Nian . Follow by Miss Ngia, Lam and Her Boyfriend . Keith and Marcus went off first . I went to prepare and over to Miss Ngia house to Bai Nian while Lam and her boyfriend went out . Decided to watch Love Matters since we have nothing to do . Saw Shan Shan and chat with her awhile . Overall , the show is funny and much more better than Wedding Game . Meet Baby after the show . Went KFC for dinner . Jian came to find us and we train-ed down to Tanjong Pagar 99 pub . Play poker , drink and chit chat . Home Sweet Home around 3am plus .

28 January 2009

Went Baby house to Bai Nian . Slack at his house all the way till 7plus . Went over Shiwei house nearby to find him as he is sick . Went nearby coffee shop to eat . Ken came to meet us also . Send shiwei up to his house also Bai Nian with his Parent . Stay at his house till 11pm and Home Sweet Home .

Shiwei,
Seeing you like that make me felt so scared because i have never see you like this before . You are so cheerful and like to joke around everytime . But yesterday , you were really so weak and sick . I dont know how to help you also . All i can do is to pray that you will get well soon . You wont feel good too , especially fall sick during Chinese New Year . Wish you can faster get well and went out with us this Saturday . Rest more and eat any medicine which is good for you although it is awful . Get Well Soon .

2009-01-19T20:12:00.003+08:00

Went over to meet Baby also to bought over his phone for him . Meet Shiwei and HuiNa at Tampines . Meet outside Guardian , sis was there too . Went over to collect our ticket and over to food court for dinner . Bought snack and we went in for our show , The Haunting of Molly Hartley . Overall , the show was not nice at all . Dont understand the ending . Everyone left the cinema with question mark above our head . This show is not recommended . Went to walk around then meet Yitze outside Guardian . Slack nearby my house downstair . Around 11pm , went coffee shop for supper then Home Sweet Home .

Quarrels again this time round , who fault ? Is mine ? Or yours ? It seem like it was my fault as i dont understand you and cannot ti liang you . I just felt that i am not a good girlfriend to you . You can find someone who is better . But why is it my fault ? We hardly meet . Saturday was the first day of the week we meet , but you went off around 9pm as you had work . Sunday was the only day we can spend the whole day together but you gave me a black face ? Should i be angry ? Happy ? Sad ? Haix . I felt so lost and i really dont know what do i really have to do to make you happy ? You felt so miserable being with me . And to me , your feeling had been fading compare to the past . Haix .

2009-01-18T01:13:00.002+08:00

Went 99 pub at night after getting our O level result . Before that , went home to prepare and went Taka with Zhiwei , HuiNa , Jia Jian , Baby , Michael and Sister as Zhiwei wants to buy belt at Armani Exchange . In the end , dont have his size , so went when KFC for dinner :) After that , cab down to Tanjong Pagar . It was so bored over there , nothing to do also . The live band sing Thai song and we dont understand . All when outside dont know for what and left me there , lucky Baby was there to accompany me . We play a lot of card game . Hahas :) When nearby market eat and Home Sweet Home after that :)

2009-01-16T09:51:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time since i blog . Have been busy with working and applying for my Poly stuff . I did badly for my O so i am not gonna mention how many point i got . I am working as an admin at golden mile . The working environment is not bad , the people there is friendly too . A sale man at my workplace also came from Ping Yi Secondary School but he had graduate long long time ago . Baby is also busy working too . He is working at a cafe bar . We hardly had time to meet up . Reason was simply , i end work at 6pm but he start work at 6pm . We were only able to meet up on weekend . Alway missing him . Haix :(

Few days ago , went to watch midnight movie with i forget who . Hahas . Overall , the show is nice :) Went Home Sweet Home after the show ends .

2009-01-06T15:24:00.007+08:00

4th January 2009

Today was my last day working at Isetan , so happy . Hahas !!! Hmm , end work at 9.30pm . Help to clean up and everything . Bus-ed down to Pasir Ris , meet Baby and MRT station . Walk to downtown . Before going in Zhiwei chalet , bought Ice-cream and Mee Goreng . As we were hungry :) The ice-cream is so "delicious" the mango was like sour sour one . " SO YUMMY " Went in Zhiwei chalet to eat , play card , take picture all that . Home Sweet Home at around 2.00am plus .

5th January 2009

Went for interview early in the morning and YES people , i got a job . Like F.I.N.A.L.L.Y :) Is an admin job at a job agency . 1 hour $5.5 , located at Golden Mile tower . Bus-ed down to meet Baby after that . When to buy KFC for lunch . Back to his house and sleep until 7.00pm plus . Eat dinner , watch television . Meet HuiNa at mac . Bought cake for Zhiwei and bus-ed down to his chalet . Home Sweet Home at around 1.00am plus . Sleep around 4.00am plus as i was messaging with Baby .

To baby ,

Dont blame me for not trusting you . Everytime your sweet talk will really brighten up my days and make me feel happy but i dont know if what you say are reallty true . I did try to believe but i dont know why whenever you told me something , i will doubt for a while . Thinking if you just want me to be happy so you said all those or is it the trick you use on girl . I dont know when are you telling me the truth when are you lying , so most of the time i will just take it as you are lying to me . Just want me to be happy . Alot of things inside my heart which i really wanted to tell you but i dont know why , when ever i start to tell you how i feel , you will like attitude which make me thinks that you are pissed off . So after alot of thought , i will just keep it in my heart to prevent aurrel to occur . Told you something which is not coming out from my heart last few days . I dont want this to happen but i rather choose this waythen you lying to me telling me you never . You will get tired if i control you too much , you life shouldnt be like this . So i will just let you have that freedom . Although my heart will really hurts each time i saw it , and i feel like crying . But i try to hold back my tears . Whatever it is , i do really loves .

2009-01-01T17:17:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year to everyone :)

Did all of you have fun celebrating and went countdown ? I went Clarke Quay to countdown . Was so high when we were counting 54321 . Hahas . Me and lam was like screaming like hell . Our plan was to hug the policeman but after many thought , decided not to risk . Or not i will be in the police car the next minute . Hahas . Same as last year , did not countdown with Baby . To me , start of 2009 was a bad one . Quarrel and tears dropping down . Haix . Went Tanjong Pagar drink . Breakfast at Bedok Interchange . Home Sweet Home after that . Did not went work today .

I can feel that depression is visiting me very soon . Hope no more quarrel .

2008-12-26T00:15:00.004+08:00

25 December 2008

Went to find Baby at around 6.00pm plus . Watch television , left house at around 7.00pm plus . Meet Shiwei , Wanrong and Sis at Century Square foodcourt . Had our dinner . Jiajian came to find us too :) ShiWei book the movie , Ip Man at 9.20pm . Before going in for our show , went to the toilet and bought some snack . Overall , i think the show is nice , worth watching . It is also a real life story . Quite impress by the guy Gong Fu . People watch the movie if you have not :)

24 December 2008

Everyone came to my house for steamboat . Wake up early in the morning to the market to buy stuff . Prepare stuff . Meet Huina around 4.00pm plus . Went Tampines Mall , walk around and on our way back , went to Swensen to take the log cake that i have booked . 7pm plus , people start to reach . Ate , play games and watch television . Around 11.00pm plus , went Tampines Interchange to meet Xueling darl . Took bus 3 to Pasir Ris . Count down in the bus . Baby pass me a present which shock me . Although Shiwei says he cant feel that i am shock . While on our way to Pasir Ris , I saw that present in Shiwei bag and our conversation was like this :

Me : Why got one present in your bag ? For who want ? Huina ar ? (cheeky smile)

Shiwei: No la , for my sister want .

Me : Why suddenly buy present for you sister ?

Shiwei: Aiya , why cannot ? Christmas present ma .

Me: Oh !!

Shiwei: Also hope that she will be happy that i bought a present for her and count me cheaper on the Porter bag . (Laughing away)

Me : Oh , you want to por her arhx . Hahas !!

But actually that present is for me :) Slack awhile then took cab to Baby house . Drink Chivas , play poker . Went to rest in Baby room , Wanrong came in to use the toilet and disturb until me . Couldnt get back to sleep . Accompany Fanglin down to buy Mcdonald as she was hungry . Eat and chat . Home Sweet Home at 7.30am . Was so tired .

Happy 19th Month Anniversary Baby :)

Happy 19th month Annversary Baby :) Dont know if you are reading my blog . I am happy being with you all this while . Although we will quarrel , I will attitude you but you will just tolerate it . I do really want to try to change , try not to attitude you . But sometimes i really dont know why i cant . Although sometimes your attitude and action will makes me angry . But i still loves you more and more . I dont know how my life would be without you . I do have a nightmare that you will leave me , waking up crying because the dream is like so real . But you yourself do have this type of dream before and you know how it feel . It was really scary . But i know we will last long because we still love each other so much . Thanks for being with me . Thanks you . I loves you . Muack :)

The present Baby gave me which shock me are

LG ICE CREAM PHONE !!! He bought the Pink one for me :)

2008-12-17T15:59:00.000+08:00

Baby and Huina came to my house to dye hair . Went over to watson to buy dye and also rent DVD . Overall , i still decided to go shop and dye . Hahas !!! Accompany Baby home to change while Sis went Huina house . After Baby change , we bus-ed down to Tampines Mall to buy movie ticket , Twilight . Overall , the show was so nice . Starting , the male lead was so ugly . But after seeing him for a long time , i think he is very charming . Hahas .

2008-12-15T12:07:00.002+08:00

Have not update my blog for a long time already . Have been going out this few days . I am finding jobs but couldnt find until . Anyone of you have job please introduce :D Yesterday , went Tampines Mall and saw until my primary school friends Debbie , chat with her awhile and went off . I went Mondo and bought a heels , so nice :D Tomorrow Shiwei going sing K but i got work dont know want to go sing K with them or go work . Sian !!! Camera charger is missing and my camera not battery already , so no picture !!

2008-12-08T00:17:00.002+08:00

I am SICK . Yes , AGAIN !!!! Huina was like saying " Why you alway sick want huh ? " I dont know too , I dont like to be sick also :( This time round it is so different . I felt giddy and is always . Whenever i was sleeping , i change my position , i will feel like the whole room is turning . Saturday , after my work , on the way to change train , i felt that the whole mrt station is turning . I try to walk but i cant . So I stop and told Baby that i am very giddy . Held him tight as i felt that i am going to faint anytime . Now I am scared , so scared that i will feel giddy again :( Might be going to consult a doctor tomorrw or a checkup to cure it . Hope i recover soon :(

2008-12-01T00:09:00.003+08:00

I am sick , very sick . I hate to be sick . So xinku . First , i have fever . I feel so weak . Sister feed me with panadol but i vomit out the next minute i swallow . Mum was so good to bring me to a doctor :D Couldnt eat anything only Porridge and Mee Hoon . Couldnt drink anything only Barley . Hate it , passed by Pasa Malam , wanted to eat all the food but couldnt . Attitude at Baby due to that . Sorry !!! After recovering , next was headache and giddy . When i was sleeping in the middle of the night , i realise that my room is turning and i feeling very unwell . Sister help me to work while i rest at home . Thanks you !! And now is Sore Throat , i have no voice and so , i couldnt go work because my work required me to talk . Customer dont understand what i am talking with such a deep voice . ARGH !!!! Hope i can get well soon and all the sickness please shoo off ... I want to be healthy :D

You should know who you are . If you are reading this , i just want to tell you to stop smoking . Seeing her worried face when she knows you smoke , my heart hurts . She told me to look after you to ask you stop smoking . I dont know what to say at that moment . All i could say was to tell her not to worry , i will do that . I dont know what happen to you , i just felt that you are turning from bad to worse . You are old enough to know what is good for you what is bad for you . But i dont know why you still does things which you know it was bad . You didnt saw her worry face , if you did , i can tell you , you dont know what to do . I just hope you will do the right things and stop making her worry .

2008-11-25T01:00:00.002+08:00

ARGHH !!!! I am so angry , so i came to blog to vent all my angers . I hate all guy man (except baby) They are just kindly so selfish , they like you but wanna find another or in mind still have another want . Then let me ask you , in the first place why not let her off , she is suffering . First time hurts her lots already , thought you will be different but is still the same . Please guys , if you all dont loves my sister truely , fucking hell fuck off . She dont need you all . Her friends and Families is they for her and to her , it is enough . She want peace , stop breaking her heart OKAY ! Especially the 2 boys , you should know who you are . If you are reading this , the first one XM , stop pestering her . She has given you so many chances , quarrel just occurs when you 2 are together . You attitude did change and i did feel pity for you but when you are once back together , you same old attitude comes back again . NO FEELING = NO RELATIONSHIP . STOP all you messages , tagging . Kindly leave her alone !!!
To the next boy , WR , since you cant forget her , then what for be with her , revenge ?? Now , i dont wants to say anything , all i want to say is that , since she is hurt and this cannot be turn back , stop all your messaging . What you want ?? She to continue loving you while you forget her ?? Sorry , you dont have that kind of charm or anythings to make her wait for you . Stop telling her you will protect her and dont reject you , she dont need you okays , she have F.R.I.E.N.D.S we will always be the one who will never hurt her and be there for her .
She is contented with her life , so you guys , STOP ALL THAT!!!!

Seeing you crying so sadly in front of the computer , those tears which flow down one after another from you cheek , it makes me so hurt pain and i almost cry out infront of you and told you not to be sad , i will still be there for you . I did comfort you but i know that is no use . But all i can says is that , stay single . Really find one who you think you can last long , dont go into a relationship so fast when you have not even know that person much . Know him more it will be safer :D

2008-11-16T02:02:00.021+08:00

14 November 2008

GRADUATION NIGHT !!!!!

Went to work at Vivo in the morning until 3pm , Desmond came to take over and i went over Xueling Darl house . Change into my dress and did a little touch up on my makeup . Went school by cab , meet the rest opposite school . Cam-whoring start !!!!

I loves at of them alot .(Yitze too)

Not really nice . Take again !!!

Got wind blow , Not nice . Again again !!!

Yea , Much more better :D

Xueling Darl and me . I LOVES HER . MUACKX *shy*

Baby and me . Hope we still can be the same when we go poly :D

Group picture :D I will miss all of them lots want .

Must miss me too :D

With Miss Wong . Our Social Studies teacher

Me , Farah and Sis . She is pretty that night :D I will miss her damn lots !!

Sis , Lubna and Me . Will miss gossiping with her !!

With our principal , Mrs Woo . She is going other school to be principal .

Martin and me :D

Lastly , Our class photo :D

Graduation night was fun and a memorable one . I will miss all my friends especially my classmate :D Everyone will go into separate ways after we went to poly . Hope we will still keep in touch . I will miss all of you . Take care !!!

After Graduation night , went back Xueling Darl house to change . Afterall , went to Bedok Princess Mac to find the rest of them . After many dicussion , we decided to go Tampines Safra as the guy wants to play pool . Huina , Yitze , Sis , Shiwei and I was too bored that we went to play photohunt . We broke the hi-score , Yea !!! Order Maggie and drinks as i am hungry . We are playing around , fooling around and joking around . We laugh like nobody business and as if the whole place was ours . Hahas !!! Went for supper at the nearby coffee shop and home sweet home after that . Was really having lots of fun . Thanks all my friends . Hope you all enjoy too :D

11 November 2008

Singing Session !!!

Went Loyang point as Huina and I wanted to cut our fringe . Not to let the rest of them wait , we ask them to walk around first . Baby was eating , so we wait for him . Shiwei called the PartyWorld to check the price . All of us find it cheap so we went :D Was having fun inside . Taking picture , video and singing together :D Let go for another Singing Session next time :D

This picture is taken on Jonathan birthday celebration . Xueling Darl and Me :D

2008-11-05T20:17:00.002+08:00

Here to blog :D Yesterday went to work at Vivo city . I will be working there every weekend with Miss Ngia . It is a pushcart selling watches and bags . Peeps can visit yea :D Miss Ngia and I have been planning to work everyday . We are hardworking yea . We will find a 5 days working jobs for weekday as for weekend , we will do the pushcart :D This Saturday , HuiNa and I will be there .

2008-11-02T15:22:00.007+08:00

On Friday , My sister , Huina , Yitze , Chenhong , Ezekiel and I went school to help Miss Jew to take back our O level art . Miss Jew will treat us lunch too :D We expected ourselves to reach school at 10.45am but we were much earlier . We reach school at 10.15am . Went Suntec to have a lunch buffet . Yes , we wear our school Uniform . ChenHong did not join us due to stomachache . We eat until 2.00pm plus , went to walk around . After that , we went N.Y.D.C for dessert also to have an advanced birthday celebration for Huina . All of us eat cheese cake except Miss Jew . It was so nice . YUMMY!!!! Chat awhile . After that home sweet home . Meet Huina and Yitze at night for shopping :D

Miss Jew's , Apple Crumble

Miss Ngia's , Forget what's the name =X

Yitze and Ezekiel's , Max Oreo Cheesecake

My sister's , Goldmine

And lastly , Mine's , Macadamia Nut cheesecake :D

2008-11-01T02:16:00.000+08:00

Went to celebrate Shiwei belated birthday and Huina birthday today :D Meet all at Bedok and Eunos MRT station . HuiNa came to my house first and I treat her eat ice cream . Then we went to Cheryl house . Brought ZhanQing out together with us too :D Yitze lie to Huina that she need to go do volunteer work but actually she didnt . Went Marina Square to watch movie , REC . Cheryl did not watch with us because she had to go meet her mum :(

Overall , the show is really nice . It is not horror movie , it is a very exciting show which make you cannot relax down . You will be very nervous all time . This show is saying about a dog who have diseases , a girl who live in the building is the owner of the dog . This disease is pass by saliva . And this girl have the disease too . She will went around biting people and the people who was bitten will also have the disease . I encourage people to go watch the movie because it is worth .

Went Bugis to eat steamboat . When we are going out of the train , Huina's bag spoilt and drop on the floor . Hahas , it is so funny . Had a big quarrel with Baby and yes , I cry again . ARGHH !!!! Went Bedok to meet the rest after eating . But they were so late , so we went Mac to buy a cheese cake for Huina as a birthday cake :D

Meet the rest at Tampines instead . Sing the birthday song and cut the cake as belated :D Chit Chat and disturb HuiNa . Home Sweet Home after that :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS NGIA :D SHIWEI , LETS GO SING K AFTER MY Os BAH :D HEHE !!!!

Oh yaya , Lastly , presenting Cutie Pie ZhanQing to all of you :D He is so so so cute !!

2008-10-31T16:42:00.002+08:00

SINCE YOU SAID THERE IS PROBLEM , SO I CAME OUT WITH A SOLUTION . YOU DIDNT ACCPET IT NEVERMIND , YOU STILL SAY ME ?? DO YOU THINK IT IS FAIR TO ME ? I AM HELPING YOU TO SOLVE THE PROBLEM , BUT YOU DONT APPRECIATE AND SAID ME . WHAT THE HELL IS ALL THIS ?? NO POINT BEING HELPFUL TO HELP SOLVE THE PROBLEM YOU HAVE MENTION AND STILL GET THIS KIND OF REPLY . FROM NOW ONWARDS , I WILL NEVER BE KIND TO ANYONE AS THEY JUST DONT APPRECIATE . IN THE END , IT IS YOUR FAULT , SO WHAT IS THE POINT OF BEING SO KIND TO SAID THE SOLUTION BUT THE OTHER DONT APPRECIATE ? SO DISAPPOINTED !!!!

2008-10-30T22:44:00.003+08:00

Most of the papers have finish . Only left with Social Studies , Mother Tongue and Science Paper 1 . After Os , i am going to play hard :D I am going to find a job too . I want to find a job with only 5 working days , so that i will have time with Baby and friends :D

Last few days , chat with Marcus and we came to a conversation whereby this world is realistic , cruel . We cant trust anyone in this world , even close friend . You will never know that one day they might betray you . You are not sure also if things happen to you , will they be there to help you or they will just behave like a coward . Only our parents will really help us when things happen because we are their real blood child and they care for us . Marcus , i know how you are feeling , i know you dont want to mind other business anymore . I agree with what you are saying :D

Mr Yeo , problem of relationship is staring to appear as i told you it will right ?? I guess my six sense is quite accurate sometimes . I know how you feel , i know you are always serious in every relationship . But remember what i told you , when you have to be bad , you must be , dont be soft hearted . Whatever it is , you must remember what i told you . Even if you cant do it , you must really try . Be happy and dont care much :D

Lastly , I MISS HSU FONG LAM AND AFFIA TAN MING LI . WHEN ARE WE GOING TO MEET UP ?? I REALLY MISS YOU ALL :( They have been busy working and I have been busy studying due to Os . Hope we can really meet up often after my Os :D

2008-10-25T02:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY YEO JIAJIAN :D

Hope you did enjoy your celebration with your family and love ones . Sorry didnt celebrate with you :D Had know you not long but i remember during a period of time , i am very close with you due to something . I did saw you happy , sad and tears before . Although now we are not that close , but at least we are still good friend :D Stay happy , handsome and may all your wish come true . Last long with your girlfriend . Study hard for your Os :D

只给自己三年。没有信任的爱情真的能像你所希望的长久吗？

2008-10-24T01:59:00.000+08:00

So bored , wasnt feeling really happy this few days . Mood Swing . I can be happy at this minute , sad at another minutes . What to do !!!! I dont want to be sad :( Lots of things in mind , dont wish to says out . Just keep it all inside bah . Haix ... Must everyone tells lies ?? When can people stop lying ?? This world is just too scary . I AM MAD !!!!

Last few days , saw Shirley , my primary school friends at my house opposite de bubble tea shop . Saw until her baby . So cute :D And Shirley is getting prettier :D Meet up soon yea !!!

To lazy to blog , wont be blogging for this fews month bah ... Until my mood is back . As i said before , i will only blog happy stuff , no more sad stuff :D

End my post with a picture of ZhanQing . Grab from Cheryl's blog . He is just simply so cute and is growing up . Very naughty , heard from Cheryl . Will Visit Cheryl and ZhanQing after Os bah . Do take care and stay happy :D Hope ZhanQing head is fine now .

2008-10-23T22:31:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SNG SHI WEI :D

Maybe all you wish come true . Stay Happy and Handsome forever . Take care of yourself . Will visit you coffee boy :D Will only be able to celebrate your birthday for you next week , it will be a belated want . Nevermind , better than nothing . Hope you can understand , not we dont want to celebrate for you , just that studies are more important :D Will confirm present will be there for you and it will be a memorable 18th celebration for you . Hope you enjoy today with your friends :D Stay happy !!!!

2008-10-23T00:34:00.000+08:00

SAD AND FEELING USELESS!!!!!

2008-10-22T13:46:00.004+08:00

I sometime do wonder , how long really can a relationship last ?? I did have people around me who have long relationship , she have been with her husband together since they are secondary 3 till now , they even have a daughter . I admire them , as i wish i can too . Can Baby and I last long like them ? I did think that Baby is my last boyfriend , i wants to marry him . I want to be together with him forever . But can we ?? I also did have friends around who have short relationship , how they feel ?? When are they going to settle down with one and stop playing around ?? Why guys are so greedy ?? Why they want you but outside they are flirting with other girls ?? When you want a breakup , they start to act , start to cry , start to sweet talk , saying he really love you and he will change . But only for a short period time , after that , they start again . If you really wants to be so flirt , Why not break ?? Dont you think the girls are suffering ?? When you are outside flirting with other girls , have you thought that your girlfriend who is loving you deeply trust you so much thinks you wont be like that , you really love her only ?? But actually you are doing this to her , hurting her . Dont you feel guilty ?? And to those girl who flirt who boys who you know already have a girlfriend , dont you think you are so bitchy ?? Would you be happy if you own boyfriend do this outside with other girls ? Dont you feel guilty too ?? Why do guys only willing to realise their mistake and willing to change only after the girl really wanna break with him and is serious , not joking ?? Why dont guy cherish the girls when they are with him , caring for you ?? Why must guy be so selfish ??

2008-10-17T00:53:00.002+08:00

To keithchu ,

Thanks you for being there for me . You are the only one who knows me really well . You are the only friend i will share all my secret with you , even some private ones , you should know . I feel very safe when i tell you my secret because i know you wont says it out . You will always comfort me when i am sad , worry for me when you know i am unhappy . Advice me and tells me what is right , what is wrong . Tells me to think positive , tell me what is more important . Most of the words or things you tells me , really touch me , really melts my heart and brighten my days . Thanks you my bestie :D

To Marcus,

Although i am not that close with you . I did not really knows you . But thanks you for the tag . Thanks for all the words . I am really happy and appreciate it alot . And your Msn personal message . Only me are not , remember :D

Without the 2 of you being there for me , my sad days will never be happy . You 2 really are a joke , very funny . You 2 are really my best friend , please meet up often and never ever lose contact . I will share all my unhappiness with the 2 of you , hope that you 2 dont find my irritating . I really thanks you all . THIS POST IS SPECIALLY FOR THE 2 OF YOU . THANK YOU !!!

2008-10-11T13:33:00.004+08:00

11 October 2008

Went to meet Baby at around 3.00pm plus . Was so angry with him . He ask me to buy lunch for him , so i walk to S11 to buy . When i reach there , message him and ask him what he wants , he replied and said he asked his maid to buy already . I was standing there like an idiot !!! Forget it . Reach his house , watch television . Quarrel with him and yes , i cried . F*** Was so angry with myself , why i shed tears so easily !!!! Went out of the house at around 6.30pm . Reached Tampines Mall at around 7.20pm . Bought our ticket and snack . Faster went in for our show , Connected . Overall , the show is nice . So excited :D After movie , went for dinner . Huina , Yitze and Zhengchao came to meet us . After eating , we went MacDonald to slack . Home Sweet Home at around 11.15pm :D

10 October 2008

Actually at around 4.00pm plus , wanted to go and meet Baby . But due to some stuff , get to meet him at only 6.00pm plus . Reached his house , watch television ,study and eat :D Home Sweet Home at 11.00pm .

2008-10-07T22:28:00.003+08:00

Was really disappointed with you when you told me you dont want your own son . You says you will just give it back to his dad . So what if you give him to his dad , will you be together with him again ?? Even if will , will you really trust him or still will doubt his words ? Is it fair to you son ?? He is so young and he already have a broken family . Now, he had used to be with you , your maid and your dad . Now you want him to change a new environment , do you know he will be scared and keep crying ?? Because he will not get to the new environment and the people there will all be a stranger to him . Have you think of how scared he will be ?? If your boyfriend really loves you , he will accept you and accept your son . He will take care of your son like his own son too . I hope you can think about it . Beause of a guy you have been with less than half a month , because of what he said , you want to give up a son you have been taking care for 2 years plus ?? If in the first place this will happen , what for you fight for your son ?? What for you make so much effort to let him stay by your side and you him to leave just because of what he says ?? Is it worth ??

TRUE LOVE Is Beautiful No Matter One's Position In Life !!!

2008-10-05T21:50:00.002+08:00

Didnt went out today . Wake up at around 1.00pm plus . Do some housework . Watch television . Do some revision too . Did a few chapter of TYS CHEMISTRY . Was sick now . Headache and cough . So uncomfortable . Was too bored , went online shopping . Bought a dress and bag . Hope it will arrive soon :D Have to go study and rest already . Take care peeps :D

2008-10-05T02:47:00.006+08:00

4th October 2008

Wake up at around 12.00pm today . Help Mum do some cooking . Prepared and went to meet Baby . Study at his house . Then went down to buy KFC for dinner . Went back his house to eat and watch television all the way :D Something irritating happened , dont wish to mention . Only Shirley and Baby knows cause i told them :D

3rd October 2008

Watch House Bunny with Yitze , Zhengchao and Huina . Baby did not join us as he was sleeping :( Overall , this show was nice , funny and bitchy :D Was so not use to it because this was the first time after being with Baby , i watch movie without him :'( Baby came to meet us after our show , we went for dinner at the foodcourt . After eating , we settle down at Mac to study . Yitze went home because she had tuition at 8.30pm . Study until 11.00pm plus . Went to Century arcade watch Baby , ZhenChao and HuiNa play rock fever . 11.45pm , Home Sweet Home :D

To her ,

I dont know you will come and see my blog a not . But i wish to tell you that , yes . What you said i agree with you . And at least i know you are very happy now . And you didnt have any feeling for him :D Had a great time messaging you and chatting with you on msn :D Do well for your Os . Meet up for dinner , lunch or movie :D

To Baby ,

Sorry to ask you those question . I just not assure what is your answer , so i ask . Part of the reason is that my friend around me are facing this problem so i dont wish this will happen to me . But now , i know the answer and willing to trust you for this time :D Thanks you and hope you are not lying to me :D

2008-10-02T16:39:00.003+08:00

Lots of problem happen to my girlfriend . It make me does not feel any better seeing them like that . Haix . I really dont know what to do to make them be happy . All i can says is that "I will also be there for you . Dont worry my dear girl "

To Cheryl ,

I know if i ask you to cheerup now is very difficult . Read your blog and know that you have put in lots of love in this relationship . All i can says is that , I understand how you feel . A guy you love so deeply loving his ex but yet you still wanted to be with him just to hope that he will forget his ex and really love you . But when you did ask him if he did forget and he says Yes he did . But deeply in your heart , there is still doubt . Thinking that nope , he never , he just wants to make me feel better . You have been dragging this for a long time as you dont wish or bear to leave him . But then you know that you are suffering . But think again , dont you think it is better to let go ?? Although you dont want to , at least as times goes by , you will feel more better . Asking you to cheer up is a difficult things . But all i have to says is that , no matter what happen , you still have me . I will never leave you . I will always be there for you . Dont hide everything inside . Call me , talk to me . Find me out , told me all your problems . I could help you if i can . I will help you carry some of your burden or problem for you . I am also a good listening ears . Whenever you need a listening ears or a shoulder to lean on , please tell me and i will be the there for you . Stay Strong girl !

To Fanglin,

Girl , I dont know what happen to you . Meet until you then i will know what actually . Whatever it is, Stay Strong and cheerup man :D

TO YOU ,

What the hell is all this . You are the one who says will return her the money fast but then what ?? You says you can only return her the full amount only on NEXT YEAR ?? OH MY GOD , Please man , you took one whole year to return her the money when you are working now !!!!!! What the hell is this man ??? If you did nothing wrong , what for scared she say it out ?? Everyone have it limit , stand in her shoes and think . If she is the one who owe you so much money and didnt return , what will you feel ?? She is kind enough to let you owe this till so long and good enough to not charge you any interest . If she did really charge you interest , you will never ever able to return her the full amount of money you owe her OKAY !!! You says you are blind , i think she is the one who are blind man !!! When you ask her to lend you money that time , say until so good what will return her soon . But then all is say say only . At the end also never . Please la , stop bullshitting man !!! She is so poor things man . You yourself is the one who ask her to get money from you if she doesnt have money . When she really did , you told her you no money . Then what is the point to say this in the first place man ??? If really go find you , you can give her back the money ? Please grow up and dont keep find problem man !!!

2008-10-01T22:27:00.009+08:00

Lazy to blog . Went study with Huina , Yitze , ZhengChao and Baby today . Hmm , fell down 2 days ago . And i hurt me alot man !!! Hope to recover and dont leave a scar . That all . Bye !!

2008-09-29T20:10:00.001+08:00

WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO HURT HIM !!! YOU ARE SO CRUEL !! HE IS VERY SAD . SEEING HIM LIKE THAT , MAKE ME DONT FEEL GOOD MAN !!! HAIX ...

2008-09-28T21:20:00.002+08:00

27th September 2008

Went to Baby house to find him . Study abit and watch television also . Baby went to prepared and we left the house at around 6.00pm plus . Meet HuiNa and YiTze at MOS burger . There was the bitchy girl who is so thick skin , we have waited quite long for seats as it was full . There was the Auntie who went off , so we wanted to go and sit . Then she just walk over and sit down . Her boyfriend was so PaiSeh that he didnt go and sit until his Girlfriend ask him over . I feel like slapping her !!!! Baby and I was still hungry so we waited for ShiWei and went to Tampines Mall foodcourt to eat . Went to buy our movie ticket , Disaster movie first .

After eating , we went to buy some snack and went in for our shows . Overall , the show is not nice at all . No link and stupid . But i like the front part whereby this girl drank the whole bottle of beer or whatever and she burp for a very long time . Baby and I laugh like mad people . Hahas :D Went Macdonald to slack . 12.00am , Home Sweet Home :D

26th September 2008

Did not went school today due to headache . Sister did not go too . Sleep until 1.00pm plus if i am not wrong . Bathe and help mum to do some housework . Then went to bathe and prepared . Left to meet Baby . Watch television . Then he went to prepare and we meet HuiNa , ZhengChao , YiTze and ShiWei at starbuck . Study abit . Then went to KFC for dinner :D Finish eating , we went Tampines Mall arcade awhile . Actually wanted to catch a movie but the time is too late so we give it a miss . Went Century Square arcade till 11.00pm plus and Home Sweet Home :D

2008-09-22T21:04:00.004+08:00

Watch this show at Movie6.net . This show is very gross at the starting . Middle of it still fine and at the end it is very gross too . Overall , the show is really nice but dont really understand the ending :D People who are under 18years old and could not watch it , visit movie6.net to watch . Althought the quality is not very good , but then it is still able to watch :D Huina , Shiwei , Yitze and Baby came my house to help me do my art . YiTze went home early , the rest stay until 11.30pm to help me .Thanks :D Order Pizzas for dinner , all of us except HuiNa was not feeling full :'( Waste of money . Went to sleep after packing up my room :D

This is my Final art :D Dont know if i do well , dont find it really nice . Just hope i can get good grade :D Did not went small group because i went for my art to do my last time touchup . Use Miss Jew camera to take everyone's painting . Went to Bedok interchange with Huina as I need to print my picture . Bought Sushi and Soya milk after printing :D Went back and slack around as i have finish . Home Sweet home at 6.00pm :D

Alot of unhappy things happen but i dont wish to says out in my blog because many people says my blog sound emo . So , from today onwards , i must blog all the happy things . Sad Stuff will be kept in my heart :D

2008-09-14T02:30:00.018+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XUELING DARL :D Went to find Baby at 11.00am . Slack at his house . Went down for lunch and bought food for his brother . Went back home and watch television . Fall alseep while watching . Went home at 4.30pm as Brother are bringing us to Golden Mile eat steamboat . The food is so nice :D Finish eating , went o walk around . Then Brother send me to Xueling house downstair . Meet up with JiaJian , Fanglin , Affia and Baby before going up her house . Reached her house , makeup and start to decorate her room . Awhile later , YiTze , Melinda , ShiWei , HuiNa and Chen Hong reached . So we sit down and chat . Her mother order KFC so we went to eat . Called Jonathan to check with him if they coming home . Called up Marcus and told him to come over now as they are going to be home soon . Jonathan told JiaJian that they are waiting for 222 already . So all of us faster went to her brother room and hide . Wait for a very long time then she reached home . We did surprise her and she is touched :D Sang the brithday song and trick her . Cause we bought the Relight candle . She was like blowing the candle like mad . Hahas :D Glad that she is happy :D Chat ahwile and slack awhile at her house . Home Sweet Home at around 12.00am . Baby went home first as he is tired . Took 28 with HuiNa , Yitze , Shiwei and sister . Chat alot with Shiwei . Send HuiNa home , then he send us home also to take his mooncake :D

I know i am too selfish . Asking you to change but i didnt . But whenever i did not attitude you , you will think i attitude you . So when i did really change , do you know ?? We seem to quarrel because of small little things . I dont know why too . You shout up me , but end up is my fault . You says i am ugly , but end up is my fault . You attitude me , but end up is my fault . Haix .. Maybe i am really a lousy and useless girlfriend . I bet you must be very regret to be with me . Do you really come and tell me how you feel ? Do you come to ask me what i feel ?? I can tell you , the matter is still in my heart , i will never ever forget it . I am so sad whenever i think of that matter , Tears just start to drop down itself . I will paranoid a lot . Thinking if you did message her , miss her . I really felt very uncomfortable . And i hate it . How i wish i really can forget it . But it cannot . I am really really very Xinku . I am just so bad . So useless . Leave me once you regretted and hate my attitude . Haix . I really dont know what else can i do . Maybe i should just keep quiet when you says me , when you attitude me . When i am angry , i just keep it in my heart and bear with it . Laughing and smiling infront of you . No matter how angry i am . Ya , that is all i can do to make you feel that i change and to stop all the quarrel . Haix :'(

2008-09-07T14:08:00.004+08:00

6th September 2008

Wake up at 12pm plus . Did not went Miss Goh Mathematic remedial . Actually have art remedial but Miss Jew cancel it . Wake up , bathe and prepared . Left house at around 1.00pm . Went Baby house . Watch television . His went to eat while i see magazine . Baby went to prepare and left his house at around 4.00pm plus . HuiNa called me while i was in the bus , she said YiTze forget to bring her wallet so she accompany her home and ask me to meet Fanglin first . Meet them at Mac and start studying . Honestly , i did not study because i dont have the mood . Had our dinner at Tampines Mall foodcourt . Before that , went to buy our movie ticket , Make it Happen . Overall , the show is still okays but the ending was not like ending . Thought there is still more but it end . After that , Home Sweet Home :D

Went i was in bus on my ways to Tampines , I happen to see a scene where a very old uncle fell down and there is this kind uncle and Auntie went to help him up . I didnt get to see how the Old man is as i was inside the bus . But if i was at that place , I will surely went to help him up too . Suddenly , lots of thought came across my mind and i felt so sad .

5th September 2008

Wake up at around 9am plus . Went for Art remedial . Was chatting with Miss Jew and she told us what grade she thinks we will get . She target B3 for me :D After art , went home to prepare and meet up with Huina at a Mama shop nearby our house . Went to Interchange and wait for Shiwei . Saw our classmate , Rashid :D Chat with him for awhile and he went off . Shiwei reached , so we went to PastaMania to have our dinner . Finish eating , went to Mac to study . JiaJian came awhile . Home Sweet Home at 12.00am :D Had a very bad quarrel with Baby over the phone . Shall not mention it anymore since we are fine now :D

4th September 2008

Went for Miss Goh 's Mathematic Remdial . After remedial , went to Baby house straight . Watch television while waiting for YiTze , HuiNa and ShiWei to come . Went down for our lunch when they reached and also rent Dvd from CINENOW :D Went Back baby house to watch the show , Spiritual World . Overall , the Show sucks man !!! not nice at all . 7.00pm , went to return the Dvd and took bus 21 . Was late for tuition =X Tuition ends at 9.30pm . Went to find Baby and company . Had my dinner at my house downstair . Home Sweet Home after eating :D

2008-08-31T19:40:00.017+08:00

30th August 2008

Went to study with HuiNa , Shiwei , Yitze , Dexter , Fanglin , Grace and Baby :D Went to school early in the morning for art remedial . 8.00am till 1.00pm . Didnt paint much , was chatting with Miss Jew , Yitze and Chenhong . Hahas :D Bought lunch for Baby at Bedok Interchange and took bus 60 to Baby house with ChenHong . Eat our lunch and watch television , fall asleep while watching television . Was awake by FangLin message . Wake Baby up and went to prepare . Left house at 5.00pm plus . Meet all of them at Terminal 3 . Went to eat first as most of us were hungry . Fanglin recommend Popeyes , she says it was nice . But when we try , we were all cheated by her . It was not nice at all , never ever will i eat again .

Went Burger King to study . Did my social studies , geography holiday homework . Didnt finish it . Could not concentrate after a while and start to cam-whore . Fanglin have the same situation as me , so we went to HuiNa all table and disturb them :D Was having so much fun and laughing happily :D Home Sweet Home at around 11.20pm :D

29August 2008

Went town with Huina , Shiwei , Yitze , Dexter , Zhenchao and Baby . Went to school early in the morning for Teacher Day celebration . Actually was too lazy to go , but still , as a good girl , i went =X Have mass walk then back to school for concert . Everything end at around 11.00am . So we went Macdonald for Lunch . Xueling and I took bus 222 back to school for mathematic remedial -_-"' End at 3pm and went home . Prepared and went out at around 4.00pm plus . Meet Xueling and Jonathan at Tampines Mrt platform . They was late and i hate to wait so was a little pissed off . Went Eunos Mrt to meet Baby first . Meet Yitze all at Cinelesure . Walk around and went to eat at a dont know what shop . The food was ...... No comment . Never ever will went back there to eat again . Went Far east and shop . Sad to say , i bought nothing :( As the night is still young , we went StarBuck to slack . Xueling , Jonathan and Zhengchao did not join us . Home Sweet home at 11.50pm .

2008-08-26T23:00:00.003+08:00

So sick and tired of life , study and everything . Sometime i do wonder , can everyone be trusted ?? May it be your sister , friend and even boyfriend ?? To me , the answer is NO !!!! I will not trust everyone fully . Due to the fear , if you put too much trust on him/her , what if one day he/she lies to you ?? Will you get hurt?? . To me , i really wish i could trust my boyfriend again like how i used to , but i dont know when will it come true . Lies have made him destroy the trust i have in him and i have the fear . If i start to trust him back , will he lie to me again ?? If i knew , what will i feel , hurt of course . So it is very confuse . To friends and sister , are they telling you the truth ?? Did they lie to you before ?? Did they backstab you or badmouth about you behind your back ?? I guess this is life and i am sure there are this kind of people around you . So , the only ways to not let yourself get hurt and to protect yourself from getting hurt , dont trust everyone fully . Sorry for the draggy post . I am just saying out all my question mark inside my mind :D

Today went to school in the morning , went art small group and i only paint a small part of my art !!! hahas :D Went to eat with Miss Jew , Francis and JiaJian . Francis order a whole table of food . I told him we wont be able to finish and his reply is " Nevermind , I like to have whole table with foods " -_-"' And yes , true enough , we didnt finish it . He brainwashed or gave us motivation lesson . Miss Jew was so kind to bought Muffin for JiaJian and me . Thanks :D Home Sweet Home at around 6.00pm plus :D

2008-08-25T22:10:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday Brother !!!!

Happy Birthday Brother !!! Had Mother Tongue Prelim in the morning until 12.22pm . Went Bubble tea to buy drink , then went back to school . Sit at the canteen and chit chat . 2.00pm , HuiNa all went to their oral exam . 2.30pm , went to small group . Have physic paper 2 mock test . Didnt attend a single question from section B as i dont understand AT ALL !!! Did section A but i dont know if i did correct . Hahas !!! Went Social Studies after that . All the way until 6.00pm . Went Bubble with Yitze Huina and Baby . Home Sweet Home after that :D Mum cook 面线 . After that , at around 10.00pm plus , we cut the cake :D To Brother , May all your wish come true :D Faster have a Baby , i want play with him/her :D

Peeps , this blog will be mine only . I did not share with Affia anymore . Relink me people :D

I am selling MoonCake now , anyone interested , please leave your e-mail and i will give you the details :D

2008-08-24T00:17:00.007+08:00

21st August 2008

Had my english oral today !!!! Oh My God , all i can says is that i am so so so nervous . Was in a room with my classmate , we were like keep practising . I am the last third people . I get more and more nervous when it is near my turn . Lubna Siyin and i was like keep talking about other stuff to make us not to nervous and forget about the oral . When it was my turn , i can tell you , i was so nervous till i shiver -_-"' Overall , i think i did good for the picture but i did badly for my conversation . Hope i can pass !!!! Good Luck to those who are taking their oral on monday :D

22th August 2008

HuiNa and Yitze did not attend school !!! School was boring , feel so sleepy during math lesson and i actually regretted coming to school . Mother Tongue lesson , i did not listen instead , i study my Social Studies test . I was hoping that teacher dont give 2 of the question out of 4 but i can says lady luck is not on me , teacher gave the 2 question which i wish it will not come out :( Hope i can pass as i want the notes !!!! After school , went home prepared . Meet HuiNa and Yitze and mac to study :D Meet Lam at Guardian first . Study until 7.00pm plus , went tampines mall shop for ahwile , then we went Starbuck . 11.00pm plus , home sweet home :D

23th August 2008

Wake up at 8.00am . Went to school for mathematic remedial !!! Was feeling so tired . Lesson end at 1.50pm . Meet Baby outside school bus-stop . He also came back school to do his D&T . Has our lunch at Bedok Interchange and went Baby house . Again , he force me to bathe . He said cause i caught in the rain when walking to the bus-stop . If i dont bathe , I will catch a cold . My Baby is so sweet :D Fall alseep when watching the Olympics . Wake up at 4.35pm , went to prepare and left his house at around 5.35pm . Went Mac to find HuiNa , Yitze , Fanglin and Affia . Went to buy our movie ticket , 4bia . Bought some snack and went in for our shows . Overall , the shows is scary and funny !!! It is worth watching . After movie Affia and Fanglin went off first and the rest of us went Tampines FoodCourt for dinner . After that , we went to my house nearby and slack .

24th August 2008

Baby , Happy 15th Anniversary . Sometime you will make me angry , make me sad , make me tears , make me attitude and even lie to me , but then , i still loves you alot !!! I will try to change all my bad point just for you but there is one thing i will never ever change . Is my love for you :D We have been together for 1 year plus le , i dont know if you have trust me ?? But till now , i admit that i have not fully trust you . It just need times .But at least i know you really loves me , i believe that :D 我好爱你！！！

2008-08-20T21:36:00.003+08:00

"O" LEVEL ENGLISH ORAL TOMORROW . I AM SO SO SO NERVOUS . Hope i can do well and pass my english !!! Without english or fail english , i cannot go poly , God bless me !!!!

Xueling darl , i dont know how you feels . This kind of feeling , i had never had before . I dont understand too . As it did not happen to me before . But all i know is that , telling you to be happy is impossible cause i know you cant . But i know you will try :D All i can says is that , people get old and will passed away . This is life . God are good enough to let him live till now , time is up , god is taking him away . No ones can stop or change the decision god had make . You have to face it one day too . I know you are trying very hard to be happy and not to cry . But if you are really sad and feel like crying , cry out loud , you will feel better . Stay strong and be cheerful quickly . I love the Darling which love to joke around and her laughter :D

2008-08-17T22:41:00.002+08:00

16August2008

Went out with HuiNa , ShiWei , XueLing , Jonathan , JiaJian , Lam , Xian Eng , Affia and Baby . Victor did not join us because she went to her sister Baby One Month . Before that , went to school for Mathematic remedial . Went to meet Baby at his house bus-stop , we went to the nearby market for Lunch . Went back his house and Baby force me to bathe . Hahas !!! Watch the olympic and fall alseep . Baby wake me up at 2.30pm . Went to prepare . Waited for them so long and Baby nearly fall asleep . Meet all of them at Eunos platform . Went Cinelesure . Bought our Movie ticket and we went separate ways for our dinner . Shiwei , Fanglin , Affia , Baby and I went Hong Kong cafe while the rest went to KFC . Walk around and went to the arcade . 7.10pm , went to buy some snack . Went in for our shows , Meet Dave . Overall , the show was boring for me , it was funny but the storyline was not good . The ending ... no comment . After that , walk around and we went to Tampines Mac slack . Home Sweet Home at 11.50pm :D

2008-08-17T01:45:00.012+08:00

15August 2008

Happy Birthday ChenHong and PohSuan !!!

Went to ChenHong BBQ at East Coast . Before that , went home to bathe and everything , went back school to attend mathematic small group lesson . After that went to Xueling Darl house to prepare . Jonathan and JiaJian came also but awhile later , they went down to eat . Meet Martin , Victor, Mel and Baby at Bedok Princess Mac as Baby , Xueling and I are having our dinner there first . Took bus 196 to East Coast . Cam-whoring with them but all the picture are with Xueling , only have me and Baby de picture :D

Reach there and wish him happy birthday . Then went to eat . They were gambling at there . Hahas !!! 10.00pm plus , cut the cake . And the poor him was being carry down to the sea right after we have finish singing the birthday song . He came back to make a wish and cut the cake :D After that , slack awhile . Chat with them . 11.00pm plus , Home Sweet Home !! Chen Hong was so funny , he thanks us for buying the cake for him :D

2008-08-11T20:22:00.002+08:00

Okays people , congrats to me .. i have been staying at home for freaking 2 days !!!! Oh My God , i cant imagine that . I was so so so bored lorr . Fanglin 放我飞机 which means i didnt go study with her . JiaJian says he want go pastamania but dont know why , no news liao . Also dont know why never go . Hahas !!! And i was so fucking hell lazy to do my homework or even reivison . Die le la .. I dont know why i at home cannot study . Must be outside then can study . Sian !!!

okays , why i put that picture . That is because i feel that i am so fucking hell useless . Baby was sick but i did not went to take care of him . The reason was because i was waititng for fanglin to tell me whether she wanted to go study . When she confirm with me liao , baby went to rest . So did not went to visit baby . But what he says hurts me directly although he is just joking . My tears immediately roll down when i saw the message he send me . haix ... I am sorry . I am so useless . I was not there when you need me there . Sorry .. Telling you i love you but i did nothing . Hais .. I am useless and i really hate myself alot .From the past , i have already hate myself so , i am used to it . But all i can says is that , i am really sorry .

2008-08-10T22:28:00.002+08:00

Okays , i am a very good girl today because i stay at home the whole day . But i did not even study does that still consider good girl ?? Ya , for me it is :D Nothing to do so i finish watching 超级星光大道 and that episode i watch , Sugie was out :( Finish watching jiu watch telvision , eat tidbits . Oh yea , i have ate lots of tidbits today man !!! So fatty . I regret eating :( Afternoon got 七月俏佳人 , long time since i last watch this show . And i love this show so nice :D Then i went 土豆 and watch 命中注定我爱你 . So nice :) Baby is a pig because he wake up only at 3.00pm . So i didnt go meet him . I am so bored now !!! Oh ya , tomorrow maybe going to study with Fanglin and Baby , first time Fanglin asked me want to go study ma ... Hahas !!!

Baby , 我好爱你啊！！！ Yesterday with had a quarrel , but i dont know why you can burst out laughing when i am so angry ... and and and i actually couldnt control and laugh too .. OMG , first time sia , people quarrel until can laugh . But i realise that sometime you like dont care me lorr .. Idiot . Still says will care more and put more attention on me . Bluff me again !! But i really loves you alot :D I really hope and think that we will be able to last long !!! I confirm gurantee plus chop will not break with you and my feeling for you will not fade unless you are the one who is changing or dont loves me anymore . I am not lying okays and this is true :D Hahahahahas .... Dont be touched arhs if you are reading this :D

SHIRLEY , YOU OWE ME AND JIAJIAN A PACKET OF TIDBITS , REMEMBER ARHX !!!!

2008-08-09T00:32:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Singapore !!!! Wake up at around 1.00pm plus , eat and watch television . Watch It Started With A Kiss 2 at SCV , went to bathe at 2.30pm . I lie to HuiNa that i going to bathe at 2pm =X .

Went to prepare . Cam-Whoring before going out to meet Baby :D Meet HuiNa at the Mama shop and we went interchange to meet Baby and Yitze . Ate Yong Tau Fu while Huina eat dessert as she is not hungry . Went to buy drink while waiting for ShiWei to be ready .

Took train to Pasir Ris first so that there will be seats . Called Shiwei and ask him to take train to Simei so that we can leave seats for him :D Cam-whoring on the train while waiting for the train to go . Before we could give the seat to Shiwei , there is this uncle who came to sit at Tampines stop . Went to Marina Square . Wanted to catch a movie but all the show are selling fast . So we went to walk a round instead . JiaJian , Jonathan and Martin came to meet us at around 7.00pm plus if i am not wrong . Had a big quarrel with Baby but afterall , we are fine . Sorry YiTze and HuiNa if i scared until you all :D

Slack awhile and then went to Suntec to walk around . Home Sweet Homw after that . HuiNa they all went to MacDonald to slack . I went home because i am tired . Baby and Shiwei send me home :D

2008-08-04T12:49:00.014+08:00

2nd August 2008

Meet up with HuiNa , Yitze , XianEng , JiaJian and Baby at Tampines Small Mac . Accompany Yitze go Tampines Mall Basement to buy makeup remover . Then off to take Mrt and meet Jonathan , Xueling and Melinda at Bedok platform . Have a tiff with Baby on the way . End up we are fine :D Went to The Cathay to buy ticket , after much discussing , we decided to watch the X -files . After that we went 日本村 to eat as everyone is hungry . Baby and i order Shabu Shabu beef , chiwamushi , fried tofu and some sushi . We had Waffle Strawberry for dessert :D After eating , we went outside the shop to take photo !!! The boys went to paradis centre for pool session while the girls went to Plaza Singapura for shopping spree . Xueling was the one who suggest to go Cotton On but end up is HuiNa and me buying stuff from there :D After buying , rush back to meet them as we are about to late . Buy some snack and went in for out show . Overall , the show is stupid , the ending dont understand . Whatever it is , everything is so stupid and not recommended . People who are reading my blog , i advise you people not to watch this show as it is not worth :D HuiNa and I wanted to go out to buy birthday cake for YiTze to surprise her , but we are sitting too far from each other and the time is too late and the shop is closed . Actually Yitze didnt know that but when we are going down the escalator , Ah Mel told Jonathan "we are not buying cake liao" and Yitze is just beside her . So funny :D

As the time are still early , so we slack outside . HuiNa they all went to StarBuck to buy a small cake for Yitze and they take sweet to represent the candle :D 11.00pm plus , Home Sweet Home :D

JiaJian , i know how you feel now . 7month says long also not that long so short also not short . It takes many month to build up a strong relationship but it takes a few second to end this relationship too . No matter what , if you 2 are really fate to be together , no matter what obstacle you 2 have face , you 2 will still be able to overcome it and be together . She does not wish to end this relationship too , she is hurt too , so you cannot blame her . She have her reason . You must understand . Who wish to end a relationship and this is her first relationship , she must have think through a lot of things before making this discussion . Stay strong and be the Happy Jian you used to be :D

2008-08-02T01:18:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday to YiTze !!!!! Last long with your boy and may all your wishes come true :D Celebrate your brithday tomorrow happily and enjoy yourself :) Stay pretty and crazy always !! Happy Birthday to Yisin to :D (above is the birthday cake and so called present i give to you . Nice right ?? )

Here is the Birthday Song for you by me !!!

Happy Birthday to you

Happy Birthday to YiTze and Yisin

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!

Went to do my Prelim art with PohSuan , HuiNa and Zheng Chao . Baby came to meet us at Tampines Mall after that . Have fun doing art with them , they are all joker man !!! Make me laugh so many today :D Also truely thanks HuiNa again for helping me in my art :) PohSuan went off at 7.45pm to meet her boyfriend . So the rest of us went to walk around at Tampines Mall and Century . ZhengChao and Baby went foodcourt eat , HuiNa and I ate dessert as we are very full !! Home Sweet Home at 10.30pm :D LOVES MY BABY !!! MUACK MUACK MUACK !!

2008-07-30T19:25:00.002+08:00

Had my Mathematic Prelim Exam today . Was damn difficult lah !!!! Sure flunk . Went Math remedial at 12.00pm till 1.00pm . Went Art room to find HuiNa !!! Help Esther to do her art because she have to hand in tomorrow and still go a lot of things have not finish . Help her until 4.00pm , Home Sweet Home :D Bored !!!

2008-07-28T19:53:00.023+08:00

Pictures of Yoga Lim 校园演唱会!!!!

Yoga Lim and Liu Li Yang 签唱会 at Bugis !!!

More coming , waiting for HuiNa to send me :D

2008-07-26T23:41:00.004+08:00

26th July 2008

Went to Miss Goh mathematic remedial early in the morning . Meet JiaJian at 222 bus stop . Remedial ends at 11.30am . Walk to number 60 bus-stop with JiaJian . Called Baby went i was about to reach . Watch television at Baby house then went down to pack food . Finish eating , wanted to study but Baby says rest first . He said he want to sleep for 30mins . So okay , we sleep . But who knows , we 7.00pm plus then wake up . Hahas !!! Watch television , do our revision and homework . Went down to eat at 10.00pm then home sweet home :D

25th July 2008
Went to watch movie with Baby and JiaJian . Before that , have Social Studies prelim exam in the morning . Didnt finish my Source Base Question . I forget to write the last word . Hahas !!!! Exam ends at 9.30am . Went to canteen to buy bread eat . 10.00am , went to Miss Goh Mathematic remedial till 11.30am . Went to find baby , huina all at art room . Left at 2pm plus . Home Sweet Home !!! Went to sleep till 4.00pm . Prepared and left house . Meet Baby and JiaJian at interchange . Went to buy the ticket , then bought some food and went in for our show , Red Cliff . Overall , the show is nice . Must watch must watch !!! Went Tampines Mall foodcourt eat , ShiWei came to meet us too . Went Timezone play games . 10.00pm , went to Macdonald slack . Talk alot with them and ShiWei was saying about his work stuff , which was so funny man !!! Saw HuiNa and she came to find us awhile . Home Sweet Home at 11.30pm :D I LOVES MY BABY SO MUCHY !!!!

2008-07-24T21:18:00.002+08:00

Happy 14th Anniversary Baby :D I know you forget today is our anniversary . But forget it bah !!! Maybe you are too busy or what . I dont blame you . Have science practical today . I think i am going to flunk the paper . And i was late for the reporting time because i waited for JiaJian !!! Mr.Chua said he will give us ZERO cause we are late . We wanted to left because we are going to get zero not to waste time . But we still went to take because we want to give it a try . It was difficult !!! After practical ends , went to inter meet Baby they all . Then went to Baby house and sleep !!! Too tired le . Home Sweet Home at 6.45pm . Went to tuition after that . Off to study my Social Studies for tomorrow paper :D

Happy 14 anniversary . Due to pretical exam and tomorrow social studies paper , we couldnt celebrate it . But i believe that we can celebrate it after our prelim and also our O level :D To me , the trust is increasing . Being with you , i am happy . I dont feel xinku at all . I hope you too . But i am really happy to be with you , i can feel the happiness . But i hope you can pay more attention to me and care me more . My loves to you will never change . Hope you too . I really loves loves love you :D Muacks !!!!

2008-07-23T20:02:00.002+08:00

Normal lesson during the morning . Was scolded by someone during art lesson . Who she think she is man !!! Also not my teacher , that homeroom also not hers . And and and , the owner of the art room also allow us to wash inside . You dont have the right to say us okays !!! Hate her man . From the moment she step in the classroom , she talk loudly and scolded her student loudly and she was so fucking noisy . She came to told us not to go in and wash but none of us care her man !!! Idiot . Mr.Chan our Geography teacher was not here today , so we have free lesson . Help Baby to do his D&T . After school , went outside to buy bubble tea then back to school and slack at the canteen . 2.45pm , went to Mr.Rozario homeroom for our prelim english oral . Wasnt nervous when preparing . But i start to get nervous when teacher says it was my turn . Mr.Rozario was my teacher . Overall , i think everything was okays . Hope i can get good marks :D Home Sweet Home after that :D

Had to go study for my chemistry as tomorrow is my practical !! Anyway , i not going to Miss.Goh remedial because i have to study for my social studies . I do not have time to go remedial :D

2008-07-22T21:50:00.002+08:00

If you are reading my blog , this is for you . I will not named out the person name but him/her should know . I am sorry . I didnt mean to said all that , it is just saying from the bottom of my hearts . That is what i feel , so i type it out . I does not hate you at all okays ?? I hope you know what i mean and dont misunderstand it . All i have to says is dont misunderstand and I AM SORRY !!! Truthfully Sorry .